melancholy in the middle of bright sun

like the heat of the sun this love i hold is scorching
it penetrates every inch of my skin
like the brightness of the sun this love is blinding
it makes my eyes shed tears



the only girl i envy is the girl you love so dear.
i can do nothing about it.
the fact must just be better accepted than insist a deeper cut.

WRONG TIMING

una..naiwan ko ung hand outs na dapat kong basahin...
binalikan ko at nabasa... iba nman ung quiz..ampness..grr..

ikalawa..ung prisaa sasagasa sa marami kong subjects...bukol na maray..hanep sana..
gusto ko magklase..gustuhon ko magkawat..

ikatulo..sira ang telepono ko..nagtext xa..inaalok akong mag mcdo..
kakabasa ko plang ngayong gabi..
at dahil nakiinsert lang ako..rineplyan ko pa xa ng "xay ka po?"
leche..waah..

oh life..sana bukas nlng kasi..wrong timing..hay.hay...

Ako ba'y EMO?

"EMO ka."

I often hear this to people who read my blog and stats in fb. And it appears that these people are my friends. LOL

hay..
why do i need to explain this?ugh..
i hate explaining my actions...

anyway,
maybe because im tired of being point blankly accused as an EMO.

no offense to those who are self acclaimed EMOes..hahhaa

okay, let me get this straight..I AM NOT AN EMO.. NOR A DRAMA QUEEN.

it is just a normal thing to release all the angst i feel..yeah, i dont wanna burst out shouting to people every now and then just because i feel that my world sucks..

c'mon..every normal individual has experienced a feeling of momentary depression..and frustration..

and i am this kind of lady who wants to express this negative auras out of my system..

if sometimes i want to savor the pain and sadness it's not because im a martyr..it's simply because i believe that in savoring one's burdens, any little thing about happiness will mean absolute bliss to that person...you'll never appreciate a warm ray of sun if you'll never feel the excruciating stroke of coldness..tell me..is it wrong? well, i dont care if any of you thinks the contrary..hahaha..

when im sad..i choose to be sad..
there might be something that triggers it but the choice lies to me..

well about love?
friends...hahaha..here i go again..

you cant do anything about it..hahaha..
thanks for all your encouragement and undying promise of friendship but i am really FINE. :)

Shakespeare once wrote, "The course of true love never did run smooth". (Midsummer Night's Dream Act I, Scene I).

i admit i am already at the end of the rope..and i will tie a knot and hang on still...it's over when i say it's over..
just let me love that person...let me cry..let me feel pain, let me smile, let me feel happiness... let me endure all things in the name of love..in the name of my true being...

don't fret when i dont get any reciprocated feelings as return..there's nothing wrong in loving someone whoe doesn't love you..it's a mundane fact..
maybe others love me as well, but i just can't return the love as they deserve..
things are meant to happen..but we can distort these..


hahhaha..kung anek2 na sinasabi ko,.haha

love ko kamu..kaya lang yan..uni man side ko..hehe..si iba kaya dawa dae ko mn friends sasabihan akong emo..masiramun ibadag..lol//

tska saro pa plang rason kung tano masyadong garo grabeng sadness ang dateng kani ta dahil sa reason na sako na lng..hahaha..saka ko naman irereveal..pero dapat aram na nindo yan kung tano..hahaha.. :)

Random Questions

Why do they always give up on me?
Why does nobody stay with me?

Am I that precious enough to deserve someone better than those persons i loved?
Or is it just they all deserve someone better than me?

Does it always have to be me who takes the first move, the first attempt..?
Does it always have to be me who takes the rejection? A big bang in my fragile heart...

Why do people get affected everytime I tell my story?
Why do people get agitated when I speak?

Why can't he love me? or you, why can't you love me?
Why does nobody can take a stand for me?

How can I make the best out of every pain?
How can I learn a lesson I never recognize?

Why do say stars fall? I haven't seen any..

Why does the sun continuously shine on Earth?

Why does light travel faster than sound? Can't it be the other way 'round?

Why do angel's wings exist if I haven't seen yours?

Why do I sail in a strange sea of love?...when i actually can wait..-as they all told me..

Why do I need to wait for you to come?
Why can't I just stay near you now?

How can your eyes spark if it's not me you love?

Why do people betray their friends when they're hurt?
How can some swallow their conscience?

Why are you so insensitive?
What's the secret of being a good pretender?

What lie can tell a truth?
What truth can cover a lie?

What happiness will you find if you never felt pain?
What pain can you endure just to feel the bliss of life?

How much can you give when you have nothing you own?

Will you love someone because he or she loves you?
Will love someone who doesn't love you?

Will you be brave enough to admit defeat?
Will you be brave enough to confess fear?

Do you know how many birthmarks you have?

Have you ever asked the Divine if you really deserve anything you have?

Is it fine with you to see someone cheating in an exam, as long as you get a higher mark than that person?
Is it fine with you to see others suffer just because you can't do anything for them?
Is it fine to somewhere else and leave your Motherland because you want to succeed?

Why can't people just day in three days just like the butterflies do?
Why are butterflies seem to be more productive than us even in a short span of life?

Why does there were times I don't want to talk to anybody but myself?

Why do people cling to their fantasies rather than live their dreams?

Why do we need to go to school?

Why do the Bible says it was written by the Divine?

Why can't I give my life in exchange for the lives of those who are in need?

Why can't sometimes even friends does not understand you?

Why can't we measure darkness?

Why does warm air sinks?

Why does buoyancy exist?

Why does Science seem to always have the answers?

Why do we doubt?
But then again why are we always deceive by what we doubt?

Why do we hold principles which are not really are own?

How can you easily forget those that love you? and remember those you love?

Why does fact exist when man seeks for the truth?

Why do we need to seek for truth when facts already exist?

What are the scientific names of those plants in Farmville?

Why do you buy friends in Friends for Sale?
Don't you know that your friend's worth is more than the square of the sum of the all the FFS users' value?

Why can't I perfect my grammar?
But why am I annoyed of those who doesn't care about their grammar?

Why can't I twist my hips when I play?
Why do I still maintain a good posture even if I must slouch?

Why do people taboo wars and battles yet patronize Mafia Wars and Battle Realms?

Why do you go to church then later on do some bad mouthing?
Because you know it's venial?
Because you know he'll forgive?

Why do you do good only to people who do good to you?

Why do some people tend to envy me? I mean, I'm serious..lol

Why do you envy others?

Why aren't we contented with what we have, but we're still occasionally happy?

Why do we get sad?

How can you make someone's day extraordinary?

How come you annoy me much?