random sadness.

hanep na bakasyon. nasosobrahan ata ako nang kakapanood ng teleserye.
alright. syempre dahil nga self-centered ako at walang pakialam sa problema ng mundo e nalulungkot na naman ako. wala lang. bigla na naman yung malamig na pakiramdam. yung pakiramdam na walang romantically inclined sa'yo. na kung meron man e sinukuan ka pa. ayos. deym. nakakainis. walang tumatanggap. hahaha. anyway, highway, bahala na...
no high hopes for love this 2012. hanggang wala pang consistent at seryosong lalaki, career-career muna. okay lang ang loveless kesa sa jobless.


hahhaha! whew! pero, seryoso? wala pa talaga? as in? for real? what's wrong with me ba? where did i go wrong? hahaha! oh wells.. pramis..kahit di pa commitment na bongga, keri ko.hahaha! the fuck. kaya walang sumeseryoso sakin e. tsss.

hayness..whyness..haha..keri lang.keri lang.

whew!

Honest to Goodness.

Basically, I'm broke. I donated all the money I saved at Tabang Sendong; I bought two bags of grocery items and bottled water. I don't regret it, though. The people in CDO and Iligan need it more than I do. Well, I should have saved more for my holiday expenses. I wanna watch some movies. I also have to party with my friends. And of course, I wanted to buy something for myself. Goodness! I'm broke. My family's broke. Hahaha. What's new?

Anyway, I'm thankful to everyone who greeted me and is still having the thoughts of greeting me this Yuletide. I appreciate your warm kindness and thoughtful gesture.

Weeee!

Alright, bigla akong kinabahan.

THESIS!!! Hahaha! :D

Sun God's Day.

because I'm an envious, god-forsaken, hopeless, pretentious, omnipotent, multi-cellular organism who has issues with everything else...

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Jesus Christ might not be the reason why we celebrate Christmas.

Many cultures, even before Jesus Christ was said to be born, held different celebrations to honor the arrival of the Winter Solstice. They used different representations such as evergreen trees (known as Christmas trees), mistletoe, fruits, home decorations, carols and exchange gifts to express gratitude to their gods.

It was a tradition from the ancient Egyptians to revere their sun-god, Ra, with palm leaves and evergreen trees. The early Romans decorate their homes and temples with evergreens to celebrate Saturnalia in honor of Saturn. He is the father of Rome's primary god, Jupiter. It is during this festival when people, adult and children, practiced the exchanging of gifts. In Scandinavia, Yule, another pagan festivity is practiced during the late December to early January depending to the Gregorian calendar. When the Christian calendar was used, the first day of celebration fell on December 25. For the Scandinavians, this marks the death and rebirth of their Sun god. Many symbols like apples, oranges, evergreen boughs and wheat stalks were used to represent their beliefs and praises during the Yuletide.

According to the Persian mythology, Mithra is the god of light and wisdom who conquers the darkness. He was worshiped by Roman soldiers millenniums before the common era. He has eventually become the sun god which was then adapted by the Greeks. Many records presented that his birthday falls on the 25th of December. The early Greeks celebrated the Winter Solstice during December 17-23 and they believed that the 25th is the birth of their unconquerable sun god, Mithra.

It was also from the Greeks that the happy symbol of mistletoe came about. The Greeks and Druids once believed that mistletoe has magical powers and is considered as pagan symbol for life and fertility. The Scandinavians consider mistletoe as the "plant of peace" where in its presence enemies can declare truce.

All of these and other more pagan traditions were then adapted by the Christian evangelism by altering many beliefs to fit their own customs and call the many Winter Solstice celebrations under one label, Christmas.

source:
http://ancienthistory.about.com/od/holidaysfestivals/a/solsticeceleb.htm
http://ancienthistory.about.com/od/holidaysfestivals/a/solsticeceleb_4.htm
http://www.endtimeprophecy.net/Articles-Non-EPN/mithra-1.html
http://ancienthistory.about.com/od/holidaysfestivals/a/solsticeceleb_2.htm
http://www.wicca.com/celtic/akasha/yule.htm
http://www.truthbeknown.com/mithra.htm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7T8Y1-VLjGQ

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Happy Sun God's Day!

APOLOGIZED.

Sometimes my stupid senses came to me without any warning. I apologize to those people I have offended. It was my fault and explaining my side won't make any difference. There's no way to make it sounds right so I humbly apologize. It won't happen again. I promise to be very careful next time. I'm sorry,

And well, thank you for accepting my apology.

Confused worlds.

slept and woke up with a broken heart...

Peste. Ansakit sa mata.
Eh sino naman ba kasing may sabing umiyak ka nang umiyak hanggang sa makatulog ka? It's your damn fault. Eh sino ba naman kasing hindi iiyak kung sobrang nalulungkot di ba? Aalis na siya mamaya at hindi ko alam kung kelan ko ulit siya makikita. Hindi ko rin alam kung pagkatapos ngayong araw e magiging katulad pa rin kami nang dati. Mahirap. Masakit. Ewan. Peste. Ang gulo kasi...


Hay naku. :'(

When I Die...

Don't ever think that I'm having thoughts of committing suicide. Alright? Hahahaha!

Okay. When I die, I'll prove to everybody that heaven, hell and purgatory never exist. I don't know how I'll do it, but I will.

Alanganin

Me singing Colors of the Wind at the top of my lungs.

AKO: feeling ko talaga ma, pang musical ang boses ko. di ba?
MAMA: tumigil ka nga maria eleanor! ansakit sa tenga nyang kakakanta mo. tigilan mo nga yan.
AKO: Ayaw mo na ngayon kay Pocahontas? sige...

Me singing Part of Your World

MAMA: Baliw ka talagang Malean ka!
AKO: Di ba shen, bagay?
SHEN: Eee. Ang ingay mo ate!
PAPA: Lean, tigil na yan. Maingay.

AKO: broken-hearted* T______T


HAHAHAHAHA!

attempt to become a broadway singer: FAILED.

:(

Whole
by Katrina Wendt

Stop showing
You love me
A little at a time.

Stop saying
You care
Bit by bit.

Stop keeping
Me here
For tiny pieces of time.

Because I need
All of you
Not piece by piece.

I love
All of you
Not just some parts of you.

So love all of me
All the way
All the time.

Or let all of me go
All at once
For good.

Sick love note.

Hell. You are in love lady.

Hay. Hirap na hirap kang aminin kasi natatakot ka na once sabihin mo 'yon e makakaisip magwalk out ng buhay mo 'yung lalaki. You don't want to tell him you're already in love with him kasi baka mag-mukha ka na namang tanga in the end. Every day is a torment. Ang hirap kasi di ka sanay sa suppressed emotions kaya lang mas pipiliin mo 'to kesa masaktan ulit.

Hay naku. Parang di ka na nasanay sa ganitong sitwasyon. Pustahan, sasabihin mo rin tapos one day or two okay pa kayo then biglang maiisip ng lalaki na heck, ayaw nya pa ng commitment. Ayos di ba? Totally cool! Hay.

HEY!

Dear MR. LOOOOONG-DISTANCE,

...because you're trespassing my mind for days already.

Listen up, yow! Or most appropriately read this carefully, just in case you are indeed reading this. Anyway, READ: I LIKE YOU. Surprise? Yeah. I do, man. I really like you. You are sooo nice and I find you attractive. There are just some flaws that make this confession a crap.

To start with, I'm a stubborn lady. I do what I want, and I do not do what I do not want. Does that make any sense? Er, who cares? Yeah.
Second, I'm restless, spontaneous and very adventurous. I don't give a damn what others do or plan to do. It's just me being freeee and outgoing. I have this impulse to watch a movie ALONE whenever I want to even if it means I should walk my ass off after that movie. I have this little dream of climbing the Kadlagan wall in downtown. I go on jogging almost everyday of summer mornings and I don't care if I'll be doing it alone.
Third, I have the tendency to flirt and mingle with other guys. Flirting (not on its finest, actually) with guys who are awesome and having a crush on a random guy who has an awesome personality is normal to me. I mingle with them and of course befriend them to the most mundane way. Okay, flirting is such a strong word against me. Alright, I'm just being friendly. I've got a bunch of guy friends. I hang-out with each of them and I really love them.
Fourth, I hate being annoyed. Who wanted that? I don't want someone texting me all the time. I don't want someone asking me my whereabouts. I don't want someone asking me details of common things. I don't want mushy things all the time.
Fifth, If I like you, don't over react. I used to like many guys too.
Sixth, I'm all screwed up. I mean, I can't handle a damn long distance relationship thing. I cannot commit myself to a person who is miles away from me. That's exhausting and sad.
Seventh, I don't believe in your god. Oh, that's a harsh one but that's true. I don't pray. I don't acknowledge the belief to an invisible supreme being. Nietzsche once said, "I cannot believe in a God who wants to be praised all the time." I'm sorry I cannot be in one with you and your faith.

Eight....hey, you sure you still like me?

Oh well, eight, I'm not a rich kid. We rent in this small house. My parents aren't professionals but I love them with all my heart and consciousness. I'm trying to go up to the stairs of life for them but right now I'm a poor, educated, and self-absorbed kid.
Ninth, I fall in love deeply. Many times that I had my heart broken. I have this constant ability to lose guys I love. After I fell for them so deeply, they simply started to disappear. Brilliant, isn't it? If you are planning to love a lunatic like me, you should prepare yourself for an emotional adventure of a lifetime.

Okay. Now. I don't know if you still like me. But, oh well, this is better. I never thought I would say this to any guy, but yes, you are tooooo good for me. Not that the guys I go out with are inferiors, it's just that we are not in the same sky.

I don't know. I just wish you aren't giving up on me yet.
Hahaha. Ang arte lang e. Hay naku.

Truthfully,
El

screenplay blues.

yeah. i'm troubling myself on how to write a film-able script. one that is comprehensive for any director and is based in a high quality narrative. challenge, genuine challenge. at the moment, i'm in a dilemma whether to put camera angles on the script or let simple camera directions lurk the whole paper. i've read a couple of articles about it and came with similar answers.

CAMERA DIRECTIONS are good, CAMERA ANGLES are not.

hmm, maybe i misunderstood what our adviser said. maybe he really meant, CAMERA DIRECTIONS not CAMERA ANGLES. my bad. but i have to verify it first. i'm quite serious about this film thesis. last project in my college life so i'd give my best shot. ^________^

Wish us luck!
Oh, I think we need more than good luck.

Wish us MORE CREATIVITY, CLARITY of MIND and KINDNESS of HEART!
We WILL PULL THIS OFF BEAUTIFULLY! ^______^

Lady ang Gaga.

You have successfully shun the person who cares for you.
Congratulations! Happy now?

Takte. Tara shot! Hahaha!
Hay naku.

when someone tells you,

"...i like you."

the proper response is,

"i like you too"

not

"i like myself too!"

Hay naku Malean. Anong klaseng excitement ba ang hinahanap mo? Ang nice naman nung tao sa'yo. Sobrang pantataray na nga ginagawa mo pero ang patient nya pa sa'yo. Tsss. Bakit sino ba gusto mo? Yung four-leaf clover na masaya na sa girlfriend nya ngayon. Come on! Cut that bullshit, move on. Ayan na ang chance of a lifetime o. Pfft.

Rude, too rude.

Another Weird Moment.

Asking the person you used to love about falling in love again is a bit, er, awkward. It is a weird crap that nobody in her right mind would do. Well, I would like to believe that this does not apply to us, or the least, not to me. Asking him is really a crazy idea especially in the middle of the night. Good heavens! I'm really a heck of a lady!

Anyway, I got an essential insight from him. One must not think of expectations when falling in love. That's a good one, right?

So, what's next?
I don't know. I should not be thinking about this in the first place. Pfft!

Oh crap. Masyado na namang nagrarationalize. Weighing the consequences na naman. My bad. Eeeee. Ano na kaya yan? Hahaha!

Somebody's there waiting to take care of you. But here you are pushing that person away. Ang galing! Tapos mag-da-drama ka na walang nandyan para sa'yo. Magulo ka lang 'te? Ang arte-arte lang!

Well, the easiest way to escape this bothersome situation is indifference. Hahaha! Sige lang, suppress your emotion. Anlayo ng mararating mo nyan, iha. Whew. Sige lang, push people away and eventually you'll get what you want- to be alone and in total control of your precious self. Hay, ewan. :|

Charles Bukowski.

"When I begin to doubt my ability to work the word, I simply read another writer and know I have nothing to worry about. My contest is only with myself, to do it right, with power, and force, and delight, and gamble."

"There's nothing to stop a man from writing unless that man
stops himself. If a man truly desires to write, then he will.
Rejection and ridicule will only strengthen him. And the longer
he is held back the stronger he will become, like a mass of rising
water against a dam. There is no losing in writing, it will make your toes laugh
as you sleep, it will make you stride like a tiger, it will fire
the eye and put you face to face with death. You will die a fighter,
you will be honored in hell. The luck of the word. Go with it, send it."
— The Captain is Out to Lunch and the Sailors Have Taken Over the Ship

"No wonder Van Gogh blasted his head off. Crows and sunlight. Idle zero. Zero eating your guts like an animal inside, letting you shit and fuck and blink your eyes, but nothing, a nothing."
— Screams from the Balcony

"I was their bar freak, they needed me
to make themselves feel
better.
just like, at times, I needed that
graveyard."
— You Get So Alone at Times That it Just Makes Sense

"it's colder than hell (yes) but
the blankets are thin,
and the pulled-down shades
are as full of holes as love is."
— The People Look Like Flowers at Last

"we know God is dead, they've told us, but listening to you I wasn't sure."
— Love is a Dog from Hell

"I can never drive my car over a bridge without thinking of suicide.
I can never look at a lake or an ocean without thinking of suicide."
— The Captain is Out to Lunch and the Sailors Have Taken Over the Ship

"I often carry things to read
so that I will not have to look at
the people."
— The Last Night of the Earth Poems

"For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can't readily accept the God formula, the big answers don't remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command nor faith a dictum. I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us."

Panic Tuesday!

Head aches.
Body aches.
Heart aches.

Fuck. I'm totally screwed!

I should start writing that integration paper thing. Or maybe not. HAHA!

Cough.
Colds.

Crap! I'm in deep shit.


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Dear Crush na Mahilig sa Mountain Climbing,

Bigla kitang naalala.

Ako'y hands down sa'yo. Grabe! Napaka-out going mo! Geeez. I hope I would also have the chance to climb a mountain. Buti ka pa. Hehehe! And to think na magaling ka rin magsulat tapos you're into Creative Writing pa, wala na, ikaw na! Ikaw na talaga! Demi-god ka siguro! Hahaha! Did I mention na good-looking ka rin at sobrang bait? Grabe. May tao pa palang tulad mo. Hahaha! Anyway, isang beses lang naman kita nakita sa Wharf pero heto't FB stalker mo na ko. Hehehe! I know it would be difficult to see you again pero solb na ko. Solb na ko lalo pa't paminsa-minsan tayong nagkaka-chat. Whew! Thank you nga pala kasi kahit unaware ka e isa kang inspiration for a struggling writer like me. 'Yun. Thank you!

E wag daw pa-obvious na may crush ako sayo. Dapat daw e hindi masyadong comment nang comment at like nang like ng mga FB post mo. E ano naman? Malabong mag-krus ulit ang ating landas. Hahaha.

I'm a fan! ^_______^

What now?

You want to let the person know you but you do weird things just to push the person away.
You isolate yourself from the chance of love just because you are too afraid. Afraid to fall in love again and be rejected for the nth time.
You turn people down just to let them see how strong and independent you are. But you are not, so stop faking it with yourself.
You hesitate and become a master of suspicious hypotheses.
You rationalize things so that any element of unpleasant surprise would not keep you in dark.
You try flirting, dating and faking. Not a thing works. Even handsome and cool crushes do not satisfy your heart's yearning.
You have an array of choices, from the almost-perfect guy up to the most mediocre being. Yet, you do not pick easily. All of them undergo nerve-wracking personality tests without them knowing such game.

You are hideous
or maybe you're just a douche bag.

There is nothing. Nothing but you and your ego.

*wateber Malean! Shadap!*

Good morning!

Bago ako mag-kwento ng tungkol sa 3rd day ng ADCONG22, I want to brag to the blogging community na nag-confirm si sir JOERI VAN DEN BERGH sa friend request ko!

*tumbling*

Wohooo! Akala ko di nya tatanggapin pero heto, nag-like pa siya ng picture namin ni Shamcey! Woooot! ^_____^ Sobrang saya lang e! ^_______^

Ay sino nga ba siya?

Joeri Van den Bergh

Co-founder and Gen Y Expert at InSites Consulting

Joeri Van den Bergh is the co-founder of InSites Consulting, a global ‘new generation’ research agency with offices in Belgium, the United Kingdom, the Netherlands and the US. He has extensive experience of all aspects of branding, marketing and advertising to kids, teens and young adults. His clients include global customers such as Lego, Nokia, Sony, MTV Networks, Danone, Unilever and Coca-Cola, for whom he has provided youth research and advice on how to target the youth market. As author and contributor to numerous journals, he also lectures throughout the world on marketing topics. http://www.howcoolbrandsstayhot.com/the-authors/

Hayaaaan. Basta bongga! ^______^

(picture to follow on Monday)

Opening Doors.

Whew! It's the second day of the ADCONG22. And from the first day until the last day we will always be on our toes, either running to fetch the arriving speakers, strolling to secure their cabins, or assisting them before and after their talks.

Yesterday, I was assigned to help Shamcey Supsup and her companion in going to her cabana. Before they had arrived, I was inside their room, rolling on her bed and reciting my welcome note. When I was inside the wash room, I heard someone knocking. I was startled. Waiting for me outside the cabana to open the door was Miss Universe 3rd runner up, Shamcey Supsup. I was star struck! She is gorgeous in her mini-dress and six-inched heels. I was even captivated by her humor and simplicity. She is really nice.

*Shamcey entering the cabana*

Ako: Good afternoon ma'am, welcome to AdCong22!
Shamcey: Hi! Ihing-ihi na ko. Sandali lang ha?
Ako: *smiles (isip: hokeys pows) ^_______^

Shamcey and I at the backstage after her Invocation

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Aside from Ms. Shamcey's door, another door opens to me.

It happened this morning when I was assisting one of the speakers during a press interview. The speaker, Ms. Li, was with a gentleman who is a part of the organizing committee. He stood there the whole time Ms. Li was with the press, and out of nowhere we started a conversation.

I asked him some matters regarding Ms. Li's activity after the interviews. I was surprised because he speaks in Filipino. And he really is a Filipino who looks like a foreigner, either from China or Korea. He is friendly. He even shared what happened during Ms. Li's rehearsal. He said that the technical staff thought Ms. Li speaks Filipino, when in fact she can not even understand a word they said. Hehehe. Even I think she's half-Pinoy, but he told me that Ms. Li is from San Francisco. She looks like a Pinay but she's an American. He and Ms. Li should switch features. Mistaken nationalities at that. Hahaha!

He then inquired for my name and my course, and so, I started talking like I was in a job interview. Who knows? He might be a potential employer. Hahaha! I told him that I'm from the great Ateneo de Naga and that I will be graduating this March 2012.

Mister: You are?
Ako: Eleanor, sir. Student volunteer po ako, I'm from Ateneo de Naga.
Mister: Ah, I see.
Ako: Kayo po, taga saan po kayo?
Mister: McCann. McCann Worldgroup ako.
Ako: Ahhh. *smiles* (isip: goodness! McCann! McCann! Ano ngayon?) Ano po sir pangalan mo?
Mister: I'm Donald Lim.
Ako: Oh. *smiles*
Mister: What's your course?
Ako: Communication po. Graduating po ako this March 2012.
Mister: Ah, e di maghahanap ka ng trabaho niyan sa Maynila?
Ako: Opo.
Mister: O, hanapin mo ko.
Ako: *in GREAAAAT AWWWEE*
Mister: *kapkap ng bulsa. labas ng calling card from his wallet. abot saken* Eto o.
Ako: *still in GREAAAAT AWWWEE* Oh, thank you sir! Thank you! *super smiles*
Mister: *smiles*

When I studied his calling card, my jaw dropped. I thought he was just a companion of Ms. Li. I even assumed that he is her co-author of the book. But NO! He is the Vice President/Managing Director of MRM Worldwide. MRM is the "digital and relationship marketing arm" of McCann Worldwide. Whew! Too much for me to handle, just too much.

and there goes the overwhelmed and optimistic me...

see you sir next year! i'll be doing an interview with you. HA! ^______^

Ms. Charlene Li and Mr. Donald Lim

bouncy no more.

and it just missed not to hit me...

-BAAAAAANG!

when will i stop being the nice girl?

for the effin HOMMMMMEEEE RUUUUUN,

can i start being somebody's girl?

READ!

i am not being self-centered anymore, i am sharing myself.

NOTICE. NOTICE.

Crap. This sucks. I'm like a valence electron. I should have a pair!
Pffft.


Alright. This is me with the dramatic and homo-erotic agitation between my estrogen and progesterone.

CCM's Christmas SID

When you once work with the great people in the industry, you can't help but be proud of them. The feeling runs deep even if it was only 126 hours of work. For me, it has been a 126-hour of pure awesomeness.

I would like to commend Creative Communications Management of ABS-CBN for producing such a wonderful Christmas Station ID. I honestly think it's good, especially now that I have the idea of how things around there work. Hands down.

I still would want to thank you for sharing your knowledge to me and my co-interns during our stay at your humble yet awesome division. If ever, (matanga ako sa job interview) I wouldn't have the chance to work with you again, I'm still happy that you awesome people do exist. And you actually know how to have fun while working seriously.


Geeeez. I'm hoping that one day I would be able to make awesome things like you do. For now, I'm a big fan of CCM.

Inspired.

For some unknown reason I feel so inspired today. Maybe I have to thank my friends, Nikko and Reuben. For always being there. Hehehe!

As of the moment, I am thinking of pursuing the production of another film. Not the one we will be making for thesis. It was an original concept of Marc. He shared it to us and we thought it's simply feasible. I'm hoping that we can pull this cool thing off. Weee!

So, script anyone? ^___________^

and I wonder if i ever cross your mind,for me it happens all the time.

Of course your default picture reminds of my burning and insatiable affection for you. An affection that should have been dead eons ago. But unlike the extinct dinosaurs, my love for you still breathes. I don't know. Maybe it doesn't take an intellectual and charming guy nor an almost-close-to-perfection guy to take my love away from you. It still continues to exist. It exists even if you're already into someone else and maybe even if you decide to go back to your former love. I don't know. I'm still trapped by your alluring silence. I'm still charmed by your wits, by your eternal complexity.

My heart never ceases to yearn for you.

Wasoy garo love. Pfft!

Hell. I'm crying again. Thanks to you.
Ansama na naman ng pakiramdam ko.
Ako ba may mali?

Mali bang tumahimik sa halip na makipagbasagan ng mga salitang baka isang araw ay pagsisihan mong narinig mula sa akin?

Hay, please, don't let me talk. Let my silence calm you. Let us not engage in any heart-breaking confrontation. I thought you are sensitive? Why can't you feel the care behind the silence? Why can't you feel the love behind this trivial fuss?

Wala ng katapusan. Paulit-ulit na lang. Nakakapagod na.
Malungkot. Ganoon pa rin ba?
Ayos lang sana kung ibang tao. Kaya ko sanang deadmahin kung hindi kaibigan.
Ewan. Akala ko tapos na. Akala ko okay na... Biro na nga lang para sa akin ang lahat.. Pero heto..kung ano-ano mababasa mo. Ang galing di ba? I-facebook pa! Ansarap mag-comment, kaso huwag na lang. Ano bang mapapala ko? Pagnag-comment ba ko e maaayos ang lahat? Hay naku.

Grow up daw. E matagal na kong matured mag-isip e.
Kelangan pa ba?

O sige, susubukin ko, para sayo.

Pers lab returns from the grave.

I had a blast last night. Sometimes happiness hits you during the most trivial times. I had a good dose of bliss last night and it made me think that life is still good to me.

Thank you PersLab, Kaibigan1 and Kaibigan2!

Perslab/VP,
thank you for ALWAYS bearing with my drama. Thank you for being there whenever I need someone to reassure me that everything will be great to me. Thank you for being one of the few people who brings out the best in me. Thank you for staying in my life no matter how far we get to be. Thank you for continuously letting me stay in your life.
At kahit drawing palagi ang date natin, thank you.

random scenes:

BEANBAG
Ako: Nag-eedit pa kaya kaming pelikula, project mi...
PersLab: Pwedeng i-edit mo man ang buhay ko?

BORAHUT
Perslab: Gusto mong iced tea?
Ako: Yes please.
Perslab: E di umorder ka!
(basag. hahaha!)

Perslab: Kuya, saro pong iced tea... pakilagan namang gayuma.
Ako: Dae na kaipuhan.
ang arte! ^______^

Ako at si Perslab nagtitiigan.
Kaibigan1: Ano na yan? Digdi nagliligawan!
hahaha! mga kirs lang e!

Kaibigan1: Magkamukha na baga kamo.
Perslab: E di dae kami pwede. Ta pag-iyo, incest yan, ta magtugang na.
Kaibigan1: Bako man tong magtugang na magkamukha...
Kaibigan2: Iyo baga. Chinita si Malean. Ika iyo naman. Pareho shape kang mukha nindo. Mapula lips ni Malean, ika mapula mukha mo.
hahaha! basag ulit!

Kaibigan2: Kung irrate mo si (insert name), from 1-10 pira?
Kaibigan1: Iyo tita. Pira? Si totoo lang ha?
Ako: Garo kaipuhan ta na mag-uli. (smiles)
Kaibigan2: Dali na..
Ako: 8. (smiles)
Kaibigan2: Wow! O ika man (insert name) kung irrate mo si Malean, 10 pinaka-gusto, 1 pinakahabo. Pira?
Perslab: 9.
Kaibigan1: O ano pa man?
ang lalandi lang e! tsss! hahaha! ^______^


Kaibigan1: O may bendisyon ko naman baga kamo tita.
Kaibigan2: Ano pang hinahalat? Mabendisyon naman ko!
Ako at Perslab, tinginan. *awkward*

Perslab: Haluyon man ang iced tea mo tita. (taps me at my shoulder)
Ako: Iyo ngani.
Kaibigan1: Para-paraan mo man! Ginibo ko na yan, sus!
Perslab: O kaya! E di naiintindihan mo ko.
Kaibigan1: Hahaha! Iyo lugod.

MCDO
Kaibigan1: O ta abot talinga ngirit mo, tita?
Perslab: Iyo ngani, dae baya yan napapagal.
Ako: Kawasa, kabali kaya 'to sa wish list ko para sa birthday ko. Mayo lang ko maalok ta iba man daa kaya trip ko.
Kaibigan1: Ayos ngani yan, iba ang trip.
Perslab: Ako, mayo ako sa wish list mo?
Ako: -speechless-

TUMATAWID ng KALSADA
Kaibigan1: Dae pedeng saindo ka na lang magpa-load?
Ako: Sarado na yan arog ka ining oras.
Perslab: Pano ka man nakakasigurado?
Ako: Iyan ta bakong inconsistent mga tindahan samo. For sure, arog kaning oras sararado na sinda, consistent na maray.
Perslab: Garo may gusto kang sabihon ah?
Ako: Mayo man. Sinasabi ko lang na consistent mga tindahan samo. Bakong arog kang ibang...tindahan.
Perslab: Garo gusto mong sabihong bako akong consistent ay.
Kaibigan1: Halat. Garo kaipuhan ko muna dumistansya saindo ay.
Perslab: Iyo, dapat lang! Maulay kami!
Ako: Mga echosero man niyo!
Perslab: Joke lang tita!

Perslab: Para saen daa tita ang Poten-Cee?
Ako: Vitamin C baga yan.
Perslab: Dae daw.
Ako: Para palan saen?
Perslab: Para yan sa mga impotent.
Ako: Ahhhh. Okay. Pili! Pili! (nagpapa-pili ng finger)
Perslab: Gusto ko gabos.
*sabay kuha ng kamay ko*
at hindi ako nakapalag...sayang! chos! hahahaha! ^_____^

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at dahil prends kami, joke lang lahat yan. hahaha! drawing lang yan. pareho komplikado mga utak e. sadyang good friends lang. :))

Never a happy birthday.

Buong taong walang pag-usad sa pesteng buhay pag-big.
Last year, bumabaha ang mata ko ng luha.


Bumabaha na naman.
Ngayon naman may gusot sa friendship.
Ayos na regalo sa birthday.

Hay. Buhay. :|
Kagaling. Maraming salamat.

choice of words my ass!

Basta kapag ako ang napuno, walang sisihan.

Hindi ako mahilig sa mga pambatang kaartehan.
Kaya ayusin ang mga salitang binibitiwan.
Kapag ako ang nagsalita, hindi kayo matutuwa.
Ang pisi ko'y mahaba, sa inyong lebel ay hindi bababa.


Ngunit kapag ako ang napuno...

Moody.

Putik.

Hay. Ewan. Ganito ba talaga kapag graduating ka na? Moody, madaling mairita at pakiramdam mo parang wala kang makausap ng matino dahil lahat kayo e lango sa ganitong estado?

Letsugas. Pinanghihinaan ako ng loob sa film and doc. Ewan. Pakiramdam ko tuloy parang hindi ako nag-aral o wala akong natutunan o sadyang hindi lang talaga ako magaling sa kahit isang bagay.

Siguro kasabay ng zero kong buhay pag-ibig wala ring kwenta ang acads ko para sa future career. Siguro hindi lang talaga ako ganon ka-competent para maturingang artist of my own world. Ewan. Siguro kelangan ko ng isuko yung mga pangarap ko kasi hindi ko naman rin talaga yun makukuha. Maybe, it's time for me to accept the fact that this effin world only needs workers. At magiging worker lang naman ako someday.
Hindi kasi kasing bangis ng mga batikang tao sa industriya ang talent, skill, at knowledge ko. Wala. Isa lang akong payaso na trying hard sa lahat ng bagay. Hindi naman talaga ako magaling. Malamang wala akong puwang sa mundong 'to.

Hay.

Malungkot pati na ang buwan na ito. Dapat sana masaya ako. Gusto ko sanang maging masaya kahit ngayong buwan lang. This is a special month kahit papano. Wala. Malas. Sadyang nakatakda siguro akong maging miserable. Iniiwan ng mga lalaki. Lapitin ng disgrasya. Malas sa pera. Napaka-mediocre lang ng talent, skill at knowledge ko. Walang magagawang pagbabago sa mundo. Wala. Walang kwenta.

Hay.


Wala pang makausap na pwedeng pagkwentuhan ko ng lahat ng nararamdaman ko.


Hay.

Kawawang bata. Might as well die.

Wala rin lang naman 'tong patutunguhan.

Bwiset.

60D.

Sometimes it takes an A-level camera to keep you talking to me.
And I appreciated it a lot. Thanks.

Oh. I just wanted to tell you how much I miss you.
I wanted to tell you how I dread for each day trying to resist the impulse of shooting up a conversation with you. Most of those times, I succeeded.

But, not tonight.

I miss you. I know, you miss me too.
HAHAHA. Assuming lang te?

Hay.
When will I feel your warm arms around me again?
When will I see your smiles flash at my face again?
Hay.

Sorry if I cannot be the girl you can fall for.
Sorry if I play my own game.
Sorry if I give a shit about you. So much, that I really care...

Hahaha. Arte-arte. Naku. Miss na miss lang talaga kita. :|

Who else?

Hell of a Day.

Arg. >_____<

Masama ito, ang aga pa lamang e frustrated na ko. Whew! Ang hirap mag-chill.
Rizal at Advertising.
Stress kayo! STRESSSS!

>______<

Dear Tuesday,
Please be kind to us.
Love,
Mal the Frustrated

You with the one-eyed heart.

Sometimes
I want to call you
shitty names
just to compensate
with my shitty feelings.
and sadly,
I always end up
calling you
Four-leaf clover.

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There goes my October. Such a yearning month... Hoping you'll have a change of heart.
Nah. I know. It will not happen.

Er,
Focus, Mal.
FOCUS!

Sabaw ulit.

My creative juices are running out. To start with, I think it's my fault. I'm spending too much time surfing the internet. I forget to do things without touching my computer. I'm very dependent with it that I don't even wander through the streets of the downtown. No exercise, either.

I am also having trouble managing myself. Will someone discipline me? Please. I think I need someone to remind of the things I need to do.

This week is a real hell, I'm afraid I will not catch up with everybody. Whew!

Inhale.Exhale.

Sabaw. Sabaw. Sabaw.

We all need someone to ignite the fire.

Geez.

What were my classmates thinking? That was so embarrassing. Arg. And why did my cheeks flare red? NOOOO!

Alright. Alright. I admit it. I melted. Okay, kinilig. WADAFUDGE!


1. INTERIOR. MEDIA LAB. AFTERNOON. AKO & FRIENDS

MAU: (inaabot ang telepono) Si Paciano (of course, I wouldn't use his name)
AKO: Ha?
MAU: Kakausapin ka daw, yung camera kasi.


AKO: (tingin sa malayo) Hello
PACIANO: (talks about the camera, kung anong oras matatapos gamitin)
AKO: Ahh, mga 6PM baga kamo magamit?
PACIANO: Iyo...Susubliun mi. Mga anong oras kamo matatapos?

*side comments*

NAGJ: Yeee! Kelangan talaga nakangiti ka Eleanor?
ALEN: Ayeee!
MAU: (smiles) ay...
AKO: (nagiging brutal na sa friends) Sssh!


AKO to PACIANO: Ahm, mga before 6 tapos naman kami kayan magshoot.
PACIANO: Iyo? Okay lang?
AKO: (tumatawa dahil sa mga friend) Iyo. Iyo. Kay Mau man pati ni...
PACIANO: (tono ng nakangiti) Ta nagngingirit ka El?
AKO: (nakangiti pa rin) Ha? Mayo man. May mga nangungulit kaya...

*side comment*

NAGJ: Bat kinikilig ka Eleanor? Nagblu-blush ka na pati!


PACIANO to ME: Ah sige, sige..ika na lang kokontakun mi...atsan na lang sa facebook si number mo. O kaya ini na lang number na ni.
AKO: (wala na sa ulirat at di na masyado nauunawan ang sinasabi dahil sa makukulit na friends) Okay. Sige. Sige...


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Fine. Oo na. Kinilig na at natuwa sa unexpected conversation. Bawal na ba kong kiligin sa kanya? Haha!
^_______^

Okay. Inspired mode.

If your sky is falling just take my hand and hold it. You don't have to be alone, alone... I won't let you go.

"Really?" he exclaimed as I confessed my love for him.

I felt an air of awkwardness enveloping the two of us. He looked at me and smiled. I smiled back and nodded. It was a stupid thing. I am such an imbecile. Even these days, men frown at women who confess their love. But I think he is different, he smiled at me.

I then stared at him with great awe. My eyes were begging not to see any dark gaze from him.

"Please don't, er, freak out! I'm not asking anything for return. I just want to let you know how I feel and, er..."

I stammered at each word. I felt trapped in his deep penetrating eyes. My words were stumbling. My throat went dry. I was desperately grasping every thought, trying to make them sound more, er, feminine.

"You are funny. But seriously? I don't know how what to say. You caught me off guard."

He looked at the empty space and laughed. That sent me into total torment. What was he thinking? Am I going too far? I continued cursing myself until he took a step forward. That moment, butterflies started somersaulting inside me; doves began cooing at my ears. It was a wondrous feeling. It was a bizarre and surrealistic moment.

I got myself drunk in his fixed gazed. I was drowning in a completely unbelievable bliss. The urge of kissing him crawled on me just like any other mundane things in life do. He grinned, as if he was reading my thoughts.

I closed my eyes and took a step forward.

Stress.

Hahaha!

Emotional retard na naman ako.

Nalulungkot. Letsugas na Oktubre, kelan ka ba malalagas?

Hay.

Darn it. Free will, gumana ka naman,puhleaaaassse? I kinda need you right now.

:|

Wondrous feeling.

Unexplainable.

Suddenly, I was in vivid moving pictures.

Lost of words.

"You appreciate my interests,

you make me feel i'm fucking special,

you're simply understanding,

i like your sense of humor..damn it.

you are stellar el.
sorry if you fell for the wrong person."

October, so soon, too soon.

Riverside.
Cracked mouth, drunkard singer.
Cool breeze.
Low light.
Fixed eyes.
Troubled minds.

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My mind starts to doze off. I feel like I'm in an oblivion of metamorphic paradoxes. It is a tough battle to keep your wits and cool together when your heart is fucking, er, hurting. The pain is pricking me and the needle is sharp, too sharp.

A year has already passed but here I am, hoping to travel back in time. In those times when things are not as complicated and hurtful as today, life is brighter. Oh, then screw my senses!


Oh well...

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October

Be my October guest
then set fire
blaze my heart

Be my October guest
then kill me
with a
Eutopian dream

Be my October guest
then melt
Atlanta's ice

Be my October guest
stay til November
come back in December

and let the passing months
grow like yellow blossoms
in spring

Be my October guest
then leave me
in awe

Para Kay Paciano.

Hindi mo ito mababasa. Buti naman, baka bigla kang mag-freak out o kung ano pa man.

Pero gusto kong malaman mong, simula ngayong gabi isa na akong masugid na taga hanga mo. Ewan. Oo, sadyang ang ganda ng panlabas na anyo mo. Pero mas naaakit ako sa bukas mong isipan at mabuting kalooban.

Darn it. You captivate me, dear.

I need to know you more. I see a soul of me in you.

But I guess, you wouldn't be interested to me. Er, who knows?

Thank you for making this night as a nakakakilig night.

PRAMIS, kikilos babae na ko!

Hahaha!

Should I ask you again?

WILL YOU MARRY ME? ^______^

Pakibalik ho ng puso ko.

Nakaka-sad naman.

I miss you.
I just really do. :|

Hell. I wanna talk to you.
Tell so many stories to you.
Ask many questions.
Share many secrets.
Enjoy trivial moments with you.
Throw my arms around you.
Stare at you while you stare at me.

Or maybe just sit beside you.
Doing literally nothing.

Hay.

There's always a part of me that still misses you.

Ang tunay na lalaki, marunong maghintay.

Hindi ko alam.

Ewan. Siguro namamalikmata lang ako. Siguro grabe na talaga ang pag-iilusyon ko.

Pero tsong hindi! Nakita ko talaga ang mga mata mong nakangiti nang ika'y di sinasadyang mapatingin sa akin...o ako na sinasadyang tumingin sa'yo.

Kinilig ako. Parang gusto ko nang tumambling. Ngayon ko lang ulit nakita ang mga mata mong ngumiti. Ngayon na sabi nila'y mukhang matamlay at wala ka sa kondisyon. Ewan ko ba.

Binuo ng ngiti mo ang araw ko. Pero, ewan. Pinagdududahan ko pa rin ang nakita ko.
Baka nga talaga sobra na ang pagkahibang ko sa'yo. Shet. Oo, may gelplend ka. K-ness. Ewan ko sayo. Bahala kayo. Basta, basta masaya ko ng makita ang mga mata mong nakangiti sa akin. wasoy lang.

Haaaay. Kitam, gwapo ka talaga kapag ganun. Kanina'y gusto na kitang yakapin, pero syempre tulad ng dati, BAWAL.

Hay, Four-leaf Clover.

Why do you still make my heart skip a beat? ^______^

Thank you! I hope everything's all G with you.

October, please, don't be too soon.

You were sitting at the back row of the class. You were quiet, observing intently. I thought you were wondering why did you let yourself be stuck with a bunch of freshmen. You might be thinking that it's not cool to be with such kids. It was the first time I notice your existence.

You're a bit skinny but your face says you've been through a lot of troubles and fun. Drinking, smoking and things like those. I told myself you're a cool dude, only, there's something more about you. I can't remember talking to you that semester, I'm too shy to talk to you and well, too occupied with someone else. I just remember that every time you recite there's an air of seriousness in your voice. I grew a secret crush on you.

Months and years passed. We constantly bumped into each other. Finally, I got your name and started calling you "kuya". My crush on you vanished and I just wished to become one of your friends. It was really nice of you to greet me once in a while. We became facebook friends, we get along with many things and we became classmates every now and then. I heard you had your heart broken.

We talked. We started eating lunch together. I started opening myself up. You started sharing your dreams and fears and heart aches. I started trusting you more. I started admiring you. We were there, enjoying the company of each other, laughing our hearts out and comforting our broken wings. It became an enjoyable and exciting routine. For once, I had someone whom I can share my beliefs without the fear of being judged. For once, I had someone who yells the ugly truth at right timings. For once, I had someone whom I caught playing my sport in his phone. For once, I had someone who tries to be nice to me. For once, I had someone who made me felt treated specially. For once, I met someone who has the balls to bid me farewell, someone who never left me hanging without a word. I had my heart broken.

I thought it was the end of it.

But you missed me. I missed you.
We missed being with each other.

And so, even if the situation forbids, we carry on to....er, that i cannot call love.

K-ness. ayoko ng ituloy. pfft. k pows. namimiss kita. miss na miss.
letsugas, akalain mo,kahit papano e may tama pa rin pala ako sayo. hay buhay!

Mga Basurang Salita.

Provoking. Sexual. Insane. Morbid.

Dark.

Leering darkness. Caressing demon...

Hand me your heart and I'll tear it into pieces
Trust me with your soul and I'll deliver it to hell
Love me
Make love to me
Impress me with your wit
Enslave me with your senses
Deliver me to evil
Drive me
Lead me to eternal ecstasy
Love me
Make love to me
Hold me
Caress me
Show me your strength
Give me a reason to worship you
Read to me all humanity's mind and I'll listen to you in silent
Tell me
Coward as you go...
Stupid as you stay...
Follow me to my world, immortal.

My Ego is Big. I don't give a shhh.

Hay.
Totoo pa rin kaya na sa bawat pagbukas mo ng FB e kasabay nito ang pagbukas ng blog ko?

Makailang ulit kitang kinakalimutan ngunit heto't ikaw pa rin ang laman ng puso ko.
Oo, alam ko, hindi na ikaw ang taong dating nagpangiti sa mga mata ko, hindi na ikaw ang taong yumakap sakin nang mahigpit at hindi na rin ikaw ang taong tumawag sakin nang ika'y nalumbay. Marahil hindi pa rin sapat ang ginagawang paglimot dahil bakas pa sa mga mata ko ang pagsintang abot langit. Mahirap dahil ika'y nagbigay na ng puso sa iba habang ako heto pa rin at ikaw lamang ang gusto.

Makailang ulit ko bang kailangang kalimutan ka?

Ang mga ngiti mo sa Martes at Huwebes ng hapon ang tanging tala na nagbibigay liwanag sa mapanglaw kong panaginip. Ang boses mong madalang ko na lang marinig ang musikang saking mga tenga'y kumikiliti. Ngunit ang bawat paghawak ng kanyang kamay, ang bawat yakap, at bawat dampi ng iyong labi sa labi niya ay parang pana na tumatarak sa puso kong walang laban.

Giliw, tunay ba ang tuwang sakanya'y iyong nararamdaman?
Sa kanyang mga ngiti mo ba nasilayan ang sikat ng araw?
Siya ba ang tanging babaeng tatakbuhan mo sa mga mauulap na panahon?
Matitiis mo bang makipagpalitan lamang ng mga kuro-kuro sa kanya?
Alam ba niya kung bakit nagtagpo ang mga landas ninyo?
Parte ba siya ng mga pangarap at realidad mo?
o kabilang lamang siya sa mga bagay na may hangganan?


Wala na marahil akong mapapala sa pagbuhos ng tunay kong nararamdaman. Tuluyan na sigurong naglaho ang ikaw na minahal ko. Hindi na rin naman maibabalik ang dati nating pagsasama. Siguro ang tingin mo na lang sakin ay isang makulit na taga hanga na patuloy at paulit-ulit kang pipiliin. Wala ka nga sigurong kasalanan kumbakit hanggang ngayo'y mataas pa rin ang pagbibigay halaga ko sa'yo. Bahala na nga marahil ako.

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Hindi ko binabawi,

...hindi ko pa nakikitang kumikislap ang mga mata mo sa tuwing kasama siya

er, and one thing more, kapag in a relationship na, talaga bang hindi na kelangang maging gwapo kasi wala ng papagwapuhan? er, contrary to that i think you should be glowing. you look stressed, dear.
TOOOOOO STRESSED and i'm not exaggerating.
you need a rest; you work too much.
don't be too hard on yourself, man!
you can die young if you want but not too young.
please, take care of your health.
wala akong pakialam kung mag-yosi jamming kayo ni gf mo,
basta, kahit papano alagaan mo ang sarili mo.

why do i care so much. fuck.

Just saying.

text tapos tumatawag na...hmm.bolder dear, bolder.
i'm starting to get curious. you really are into me, aren't you?
er, or am i just an assuming moron?
na, here's the truth,
i LIKED you.
you were fine and all.
cool and smart.
but judging by the small conversations we had,
things might not work with the two of us.
come on. you're tooooo nice. not that i was looking for another rude guy.
dunno. i have a change of mind and a change of heart.
i don't really think that this is the right time.
hay. malabo.
malayo ka saken. malayo ako sayo.
hindi pwedeng tawag at text lang.
mahirap bumuo ng pagkakaibigan sa ganyan.
hindi ko forte ang ganyan.
what more ang bumuo ng romantic relationship?
your decision hurt me but i'm now cool with it.
i've already given it a thought.
we're better off this way. kung sa isang taon magkaroon ng pagkakataon, why not?
pero sa ngayon, NO.

PARANO BAGA. ARAPAW.

GG.

galit na galit. hahaha!

To all those eukaryotic organisms
who never lift a finger for their group projects,
FUCK YOU very much!
Die, parasites, DIE!

Travails.

WARNING: You are about to read a neurotic blabbering of a lunatic goddess.

Nay. Nay be done.
Writing. Keeping everything at hand. Making things cool.
So cool...
Editing. Honestly, I'm starting over. Procrastinating, yes.
How should it be done? In God's time? Or in my will?
Whichever comes first...
Yeah. I like Mister-long-distance.
But you screwed up when you dumped me
because of distance
And yes, I'm still in love with my Four-leaf Clover. Hell yeah!
That sucks!
Somebody told me to stop being nice to you.
How could I? You used to be adorable.
USED TO BE...

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Of trash and shit and holly and molly and folly

Kindle your beating blunders and blues

Tell me all excruciating peas of sweetness

stained by surreal lustrous lies

Navigate in edgy furtive gallant manners

hungering insatiable jests of metals

I while knitting lingering mazes

of chimeras breathing unearthly fires

stumble through an infinite stillness

of trash and shit and holly and molly and folly

TOP TEN MYTHS about INTROVERTS.

At dahil pakiramdam ko isa akong INTROVERT...heto...nakita ko sa net..

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.
This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.
Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.
Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.
On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.
Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.
Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.
Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.
Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.
Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. (eto, feeling ko hindi 'to applicable saken)If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.
Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

(Source: carlkingcreative.com)

I still don't see the essence of adapting the AZKALS tagline, WE BELIEVE, to Ateneo Golden Knights. Come on! Besides the ADMU-rific "ONE BIG FIGHT", can't we come up with our own battle cry. Arg. People of God. THINK.

Nakikiusap kay Bathala.

When you have something to look forward to, what do you usually do?

Ako? Kadalasan, bigla na lang gusto kong mag-alay ng birhen sa mga dyos at dyosa sa gubat. Hahaha. No. Basta 'yung pakiramdam na mapapasigaw ka ng, "Putang ina! Gagawin ko lahat para diyan!" Yan e kung SUPER MEGA OVEr DREAM ang ilinu-look forward mo.

Ngayon, may FILM contest. Tulad ng mga nakaraan e grabeng excitement ang dulot nito saken. Pero hayan, wala pa naman akong nasasalihan ni isa. Takot masyado at kulang na kulang pa sa kaalaman. Hindi ko alam kung susubok akong sumali. GUSTO ko. GUSTONG-GUSTO. Hay. Sana maging maayos na ang pagsusulat ko ng script. Hay.

Sana.
Ewan.
Bahala na.

Momentarily.

I am flattered every time someone recognizes my Asian beauty and even more grateful for hearing it several times.

BUT

Please,

I am more than a pretty face.

I can plant a punch on your face and kick asses of whoever I want.

I am an ace table tennis player and I have been enduring and enjoying years of training.

I read books and write essays. I am fluent in Filipino and in English.

I pass my subjects. I do it with flying colors.

Come on!
I've got millions of atoms inside me.
My muscles function above the average
and my brain cells never stop doing their job.

Get over with the aesthetics part and see pass through me.


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er, here i am, bragging the fictitious me. :|

Animal-ness! Sunugin na ng buhay!

Read this.

Bishop confirms he has custody of priest accused of rape

By Franklin Caliguid
Inquirer Mindanao

BUTUAN CITY, Philippines—Bishop Juan de Dios Pueblos confirmed Saturday that he has transferred a parish priest in his diocese who has been accused of raping a 17-year-old girl to the Bishop’s Palace in Butuan City but declined to comment at all on the case.

Word that the Rev. Raul Cabonce of the St. Anne Parish in Tubay, Agusan del Norte, had been transferred came first on Friday from the Caraga regional chapter of the women’s group Gabriela, which is assisting the girl in pursuing her charges against the priest.

“He is under my custody,” Pueblos said in a return call to the Inquirer. But he declined to discuss the case beyond confirming that the priest had been reassigned.

Lina Linaban, secretary general of Gabriela in Caraga, said in a statement on Friday her group was not satisfied with the removal of Cabonce from Tubay.

“It is not enough to transfer the erring priest to another parish where he can still violate other girls. He should be made accountable (for his acts) under the State’s laws as well as Church laws,” she said.

Linaban said the experience of the girl, identified only as Leah, showed “that exploitation and abuse occur even in places that seem safe.”

“We are saddened that the crime happened within the very institution that is supposed to uphold morality. The priest exploited Leah’s trust and violated her despite her young age,” Linaban said.

The alleged victim filed charges of rape, acts of lasciviousness and child abuse against Cabonce at the Agusan del Norte prosecutor’s office last Thursday.

She claimed that Cabonce abused her on five different occasions since September.

Cabonce repeatedly denied the allegations in radio interviews, dismissing them as “trumped–up” charges concocted by his unidentified detractors.

He would not elaborate, however, saying he would file his answer to the charges in due time.

Linaban said based on the account of the girl, Cabonce had initially molested her by touching her private parts.

“Subsequent molestations, the last one ending in rape, happened on March 3 and 14,” Linaban said.

She said the girl “was threatened with a curse and an end to her scholarship to prevent her from telling anyone about her sexual ordeal.”

Linaban said Cabonce also “made sure that his guns and bladed weapon were in plain sight of Leah while violating her inside his room.”

Atel Hijos, Gabriela spokesperson for the Caraga region, said that despite Cabonce’s denial, it was unlikely for the girl to make up stories that could soil her reputation.

“(She has) a strong case and sufficient evidence for Father Raul Cabonce’s conviction,” she said.

Hijos told the Inquirer their group took custody of Leah, who “is now undergoing counseling for the severe emotional and psychological trauma resulting from Father Cabonce’s abuses.”

“Leah was greatly affected by her traumatic experience. She could not imagine that this could happen to her considering that she trusted the priest as a man of God,” Linaban said.

She said Gabriela has urged Pueblos not to protect Cabonce and not cover up for the priest’s alleged misdeeds.

“Bishop Pueblos should be an instrument of justice and equality rather than engage in a cover up to protect Father Cabonce,” Hijos said.

“Like Leah, there may be other girls, who are not given the opportunity to finish their studies because of lack of resources. And often, like Leah, they are exploited because of their poverty,” she said.

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Hay. This made me cry. Ambigat. Biglang nagdilim ang paningin ko. Grr. Naghihimagsik sa galit ang puso ko. Hayop ka Cabonce! Hayop! Pfft. Grabe. Ewan. Hay.

Justice must be served, both in the State's laws and the Church laws! Damn you! Damn you! Damn you!