Just tell me to follow you at the other side of your world and I'll do it without hesitation.

It's not easy for me to think of words or even ideas to post here. It's just that I don't feel typing but it's contrary to what I'm doing. Sigh.

I had stormed out of our humble home and wandered through the downtown before I ended up sitting here and typing things coming from my mind. My mom already called me and after three missed calls I decided to answer her. How rude I am and I hate it. I'm too stubborn to let (even my mom) anyone else disturb my little refuge in sadness.


Well, my mom won after leaving this Internet shop I'll be meeting her somewhere. I know I hurt her for what I have just done. Though somehow I have the control over myself to do otherwise, I did not do it and maybe...I meant it. Sigh.


I just can't understand myself. I remember our NSTP facilitator who keeps on bugging the class with her question.."Who I am? Who are you?" Now it becomes worse for she eleven added "Who I am in the greater scheme of things?" I can't literally answer the first question yet here's another mind disturbing one.

....

Another thing. A guy asked me last night if he can court me. As usual my answer's NO. He insisted but I gave resistance. I told him to find someone better than I. Someone who he can share his feelings with. Someone who is not so weak like me. But, as what guys always do, he persisted. He told me that I am the "closest anybody can be to perfect." That was very fluttering but I still said no.

Who the hell's Celia?

haha..sya lang naman ang nagcomment ng "keep up the good work" sa blog ko sa friendster. at ngayon ko lang yun nalaman.

Celia's not the reason why I'm posting here again.

Today's the start of our second semester but I still can't figure out how time flies so quickly. Someone told me that he'll spend his sem break with me but it was a big joke. Duh, second sem na kaya! I can't blame him though. He has his own life and for sure he has more important stuffs to attend to. Haha. Cognitive dissonance. So what the heck if I wasn't able to spend my entire sem break with him?

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Eng002- Writing in the Discipline

I'd just met my teacher and my new classmates at that said subject. Our teacher Miss MJB enthusiastically told us our supposed-to-be task or requirement for that sem. Guess what? A research paper, survey type and some library reasearch as well. I did not feel any angst when she announced those things. To start with I already had the experience in making research works. Yeah,yabang.haha. As if?! well the contents and format are almost the same, only this time we should hit the deadlines.

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>this is not for anyone of you.but for him alone.so shut up and just read.

Hindi ko alm kung pano ka uumpisahan burahin sa buhay ko. Marami ng gustong tumulong sakin para kalimutan ka pero hanggang ngayon di ko pa rin magawa. Tinutulungan ko na rin sarili ko pero paulit-ulit pa ring bumabalik ang alaala mo sa isip ko. Mahirap intindihin yung ginawa mo ksi wala ka namang malinaw na paliwanag na ibinigay. Ang paulit-ulit mo na lang sinasabi nhidi ko yun kasalanan. Pero kung hindi ko kasalanan, bakit mo ako iniwan? Hindi mo pa rin maikakaila na mahal mo pa ako. Alam kong isa ako sa mga huling taong gusto mong masaktan. Alam kong ginawa mo yon dahil may mas malalim kang dahilan. Alam kong hanggang ngayon hindi mo pa rin ako magawang palitan sa buhay mo. Hindi ko alam kung ako lang nag-iisip nito. Nararamdaman ko pa rin kasi. Crap, this isn't a hallucination..di po ko nakadrugs! hindi kita makalimutan..kaya ang ginagawa ko na lang ay intindihin at tanggapin yung nangyari..kahit gaano kahirap at kasakit. Alam mong mahal na mahal kita. At alam ko ring hindi mo gustong sayangin yung pagmamahal kong yun..mali lang talaga ang panahon. Siguro bukas,makalawa..matauhan ka o kaya makalimot ako ng bigla..bahala na lang..Masakit lang talaga yung nangyari kasi ikaw lang ang hinayaan kong lumapit sakin ng ganun. Ikaw lang yung hinayaan kong mahulog sakin ng ganun. Alam kong nakukulitan ka na rin sa paulit-ulit kong pagtatan baduyong kung bakit mo ako iniwan..kung bakit ganito yung nangyari..hayy..putik ang baduy na..

peace kung may masktan..am i talking to myself?damn it.

Stories.Stories.Stories.

tuesday.weeh.haha.yan gumising ako ng medjo maaga dahil tumulong pa ako sa tindahan. haha. at biruin nyo namang naglakas ako ng loob na magpasama kay Ease na bumili ng kung ano.haha. after ng pagtulong ko kina mama nag-ayos na ako at dumeretso ng Adnu. well, natagalan ng ilang minuto ang paghihintay ko sa iba ko pang mga kateam dahil dapat ay maglalaro na kami nyan.
hmm,,
inalok ako ni Ease maglunch sa labas kasama yung friend nya. hindi ko naman akalain na may kasama sya.hehe wala na rin naman akong masabi pero auz lang.haha

well..nag enjoy naman akong ksama clang magbestfriend.ndjo umurong nga lang ng konti yung dila ko..and i even caught myself thinking "Cat got your tongue my dear..."

haha..haynku..


pero the best yung experience sa ADMU..hehe..

parang nagbakasyon lang kami doon..

haha..laro..kain..tulog..makipagmeet with Admu players..laro.kain.tulog.lakwatsa.movie watch.kain.kain..mangkirs..joke.wahaha..

ang saya..nakauasp pa namin yung nagsponsor ng game..
at isa pala syang alumnus ng Ateneo de Naga..o diba?

hay,sayang kasi di kami nakalabas nung gabi with the Blue paddlers. Nang laok pa naman yung isang cute dun named John.weeh..eh kaso wala silang maisip puntahan and medjo 11pm na rin yun at ang curfew sa dorm ai 12..sana lang na extend eh..

ang saya kasma ng mga Blue paddlers kasi kahit halatang-halata na mga rich kids sila eh sobrang down to erath na mga tao pa rin sila. parang yung tipong akala mo eh matagal na namin silang nakilala.bait.sobra.

bitin yung manila trip.di bale na, kasi it's either pupunta sila dito sa December or pupunta ulit kami sa kanila pag February..hehe..

hay,,yung ADMU..
hindi sya masyadong malaki!
Simula Blue Eagle Gym hanggang Dorm na tinuluyan namin ay kasing layo lang namn ng Adnu to Naga-Canaman Boundary..tsk.tsk.kaloka!

well equipped din yung table tennis room nila..lupet ng shower rooms. ang daming tables..and ang linis..sagad..haha..kainggit..ang layo ng sa Adnu..weeeh..

hayy..

anyway..

yung pauwi na kaming naga..nagtext sakin yung kumuha sa kin sa pageant or should I say my talent scout..haha..yan kukunin nya daw ako for Bigg's TV commercial and monday na yung shooting..sana lnag inalam nya yung opinion ko di ba? ang galing kasi naipaalam nya na ako kina papa.and they agreed,wala ng magagawa.bukas na yun..ahmp.
ang prob nga lang eh yun damit na susuutin.hehe..well..buti na lang nandito si Aira..hehe..nu ba yan..puros hiram mga damit ko..haha..

kabaklaan and more

Girl Facts

.

when a girl is mean to you after a break-up

she wants you back but she is too

scared she'll get hurt and knows

you're gone forever!

.

when you catch a girl glancing at you,

she wants you to look back

and smile

.

When a girl bumps into your arm,

while walking with you

she wants

you to hold her hand

.

When she wants a hug

she will just stand there

.

When u break a girls heart

she still feels it when

you run into each other 3 years later

.

When a girl is quiet,

millions of things are running through her

mind..

.

When a girl is not arguing,

she is thinking deeply,,

.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of

questions,

she is wondering how long you will be

around

.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a

few seconds,

SHE IS NOT FINE AT ALL

.

When a girl stares at you,

she is wondering why you are playing games

.

When a girl lays her head on your chest,

she is wishing for you to be hers forever

.

When a girl says she can't live

without you,

she has made up her mind that you are

her future

.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"

no one in this world can miss you more

than that

>>lintian..i can't move on because I don't want to.crap naman..i miss him sooo much..

Quite sensible and senseless at the same time

I'm beginning to think that I'm doing more non sense stuffs than those that are sensible.
I'm typing anything that comes out of my little brain and my teacher calls it free writing. So, what the heck if this is called free writing?

I don't want to talk anything that would cause me depression but I just can't help it.

Final examination is approaching and I'm having a damn feeling that I wouldn't really be able to make to the Dean's List. Heck. Ambitious bitch! Speaking of academic stuffs I remember we have some final project to work on. Even if we started it I still find it senseless. Forgive me group mates. I just don't think we'll be able to come up with an awesome presentation as what all of us wanted it to be.

I want to drink bottles of vodka! Freak. Am I that easily addicted with that alcoholic drink or is just because I'm experiencing some burn outs. Well, one of my team mates invited me to join their gig tomorrow and of course there would be buckets of beers that would be pouring. I'm tempted to say yes. Oops, I already said yes. Still, I'm not sure if I really want to go with them. Again, I'm talking alot of non sense in here. First thing I want to be drown with alcohol and the next second I don't even want to smell its aroma. Weeh.

It was a very long day for me.
Sociology's not much of a problem because my teacher is unaware that she's just repeating the things she has tackled weeks ago. Physical Science , I don't know if the lesson is easy or it's just that I already have an idea about the things my prof is talking. He makes me feel hungry. Good thing he dismissed us early. My SRA period is not much a disaster only that I am obliged to 180 pesos for my new book. I'm now in level 3b and 5 colors to go and I'm done. The fastest reader from the level 2c, as my teacher told me. NSTP bothered me alot. Our facilitator, Maam Judd, told a story about Maria, Pedro, and Juan. And this is how the story goes:

Pedro is one of the greatest boatmen in his village, which is the village 1. Maria is the typical Filipina of another village, Village 2. And in that same village lives another great boatman, Juan, he is popular no just because of his ability but because he is a lustful person and has so many cases of sexual harassment in their village. Village 1 and village 2 is separated by a river where many crocs dwell. Many unskilled boatmen died in their journey to each village but not Pedro and Juan. Maria and Pedro are lovers in that story. Pedro fell in love with Maria because she is chaste and pure. Since they are going steady for 2 years they decided to get married and they made a vow that until the day of their wedding Maria will remain a virgin. Unfortunately Pedro got sick and the only medicine available is from Maria's lolo or lola (am not sure). The catch is, all the skilled boatsmen journeyed already and the only one left was Juan. Maria ask Juan if he can bring her to Pedro at the Village 1 in exchange to any big amount of money. Right there, Juan told Maria that he'll do what she ask not for money but in exchange of a one-night stand. Of course, Maria did not agree so she thought of another alternative. But she was left with no other solutions and so she agreed with one. So, Maria brought the medicine to Pedro and he was cured. Few days before their wedding Maria told Pedro what really had happened. That because of her love for him she gave up her virginity to Juan. just to save his life. What Pedro did? He turn his back to Maria and there is no wedding that took place.

Crap, isn't it? That how life really goes.

Our sacrifices are sometimes not taken credits. Instead of a reciprocated feelings, we expect, the negative thing happens. We give love but earn abandonment .
We try to understand their situation but did they understand ours? We try to fix things but do they want these things to be fixed?
If love is the only solution then why are there people who are softly taking their own lives?
If love makes the world go round then why do many of us see things in a box?

I counted the stars above and ended up looking at a single source of light

My stomach is aching and so with my head. This might be the effect of the Absolute peach flavored vodka and a more than half a glass Red Horse beer I recently drank. When I first drank the vodka there was a burning sensation from my throat down to my chest and finally may stomach. I never thought I would be drinking liquors that night but it already happened and with no regrets.

Yesterday morning I was begging my dad to allow me to go to Iriga with my teammates and spend a night with them. At first my dad was so reluctant to allow me but because he trust and love me so much I was able to get his consent and so with my mom. Thus, the adventure began.


The original plan of our team was to have some tune-up game first with USSANT. But because of some human intervention,unluckily we did not had the chance to play. So, we're all stuck at Ate Pixxies' house and left with no other choice but watch TV and chat around.


Darkness fell, though we had our snack at some cozy restaurant named MCM we still feel hungry. And because of Ate Pixxies' generous family we were able to get not just a decent supper but also a superb one.


Right there and then, after our diad routine we all chose to start the real jammimg time. We played billiards and some brain cracking riddles/puzzles. It was funny that we're all eager to answer each riddles/puzzles. At first only few got the anwser to the puzzling game but with continuous efforts almost all of us knew the secret answers. Haha. I was also able to play Sungka with some of my teammates and beat them. Hehe.

That was also the time when the beers were opened. Hindi lasingan ang laban kundi tagay-tagay lang. They offered me to drink but I refused knowing the smell of the Red Horse, it would triggered my body to vomit my internal organs. Yet after the beer, the vodka was opened. I sniffed at the bottle and I savoured the sweet aroma of the vodka. By the point, I was waiting for any of my teammates to give me a shot. Hehe. My wished was then fulfilled. Kuya Bert refilled the shot glass of vodka and offered it to me. Kunwari ayaw ko. Nanatatakot kasi ako sa epekto. But after some more persuasion coming from the crowd and their reassurance that it won't cause any nasty aches, the contents of that shot glass entered my being.
Then, of course the iced tea chasers. Geez, the taste was bitter but sweet and the heat of the vodka is very soothing to the throat. Then that was my first real drink. Hindi man lang dumaan ng San Mig Light,haha. Hard kaagad. Hindi na lang nila namalayan nakailang shots na ako. I don't feel drunk but tipsy. I'm still in my right mind. To conclude what I'd drunk I was able to taste the beer. I really don't like it. I would rather have the vodka alone. Weeh. What a drink!!



So, hindi naman pala talaga masama ang pag-inom. In the first place nasa tao lang naman yan kung anung gagawin nya na after taking the risk of drinking. But in my case I'm very blessed to have my team around. Lucky enough to taste an Absolute peach flavored vodka. Well, hindi ko naman sinabibg uulitin ko yun. Na experienced ko na and the curiosity was then satisfied. Wala nangyaring masama o kung ano pa man. That was now over. At magiging parte na yun ng college experiences ko.

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At gaya nun, ang kahibangan ko kay Mikel ay gusto ko na ring tapusin. Nandoon pa rin naman yung pagmamahal pero may respetoi ako sa sarili ko. At tulad ng sabi ng lahat ng kaibigan ko, hindi nay yun gagawin kung maha nya talaga ako. Hindi nya pinanindigan yung pinaghirapan nya. Hindi ko na rin naman kasalanan kung bukas makalawa tumanggi akong makipag-ayos sa kanya. Gusto ko muna ng katahimikan at wal akong pakialam kung gusto na ng lahat na kuasapin ko sya. Darating din kami dyan pero hindi pa ngayon. Ngunit, kung dumating yung panahon na may pagmamahal pa rin sa puso ko at na ilagay nya na saayos ang lahat ng problem nya baka maayos pa namin ang lahat. Pero kung wala na. Hindi ko na rin ipipilit dahil ilang beses ko na rin ibinaba ang pagkatao ko.Haha ang drama. Basta. Makakalimutan ko na lang sya. Sa ganda ko ba namang to,tiyak na maraming naghahabol.

But to clear things... Hindi naman loathing yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Disappointment lang.haha. Malay ko ba kung anung rason nya at iniwan nya ako.

It ended so fast.

Revelation 101

I was left shocked and flabbergasted when he told me, "..yan malaya ka na..yan naman gusto mo di ba?" He's so much aware that it was not and never was my intention the day we get so much attach with each other; yet it was the arguement he keeps on insisting. He further told me that he's now in a state of confusion whether to choose his ex-girlfriend 'again' or to continue what we've started. I thought he woukd give me that wide grin he always wear when he tricks me but today is a different day. He playfully announced to me that to avoid the fuss he is experiencing he will not anymore choose between us. What in the hell would you want my reaction would be? A knowing smile? An utterance of disgust? A shout of loathing? Stop there. I gave him a torturing look and a deafening, though quick, silence. I gave him a taste of inferno that moment. Well, I did not wasted any drop of tears for him. I don't know why, I just don't feel crying over a SPOILLED milk. That's it.

Revelation102

I haven't got enough sleep last night i only caught a two-hour sleep. The rest of the time, I was lying, widely awake, my mind's on different thoughts. Then with an almost unpredictable transition I remembered my grade in Physical Sciences an untakable 79 and that has an equivalent letter grade of C. Compared to my other blockmates, except those three geniueses I consider (Naxcz,Shen,andJhaz), it was an 'okay' grade. But then I remember, heck young lady..your a scholar.. Ateneo's Scholar! I can't afford to have a grade lower than 80 because that would make my scholarship forfeited. Just imagine that crap I'm unconsciously experiencing. Maybe, I would not enroll for the next semester. Or maybe I would because they still have that extension for you to enjoy the scholarship grant. Isang malaking gulo pag nagkataon. Damn hell.

Revelation103
This third revelation would be something different. It's a sort of a good news. Meron pa pala 'nun sa buhay ko. My tito is really determined to give me some amount to buy a computer, whether a laptop or desktop, I'm not yet decided. I've just received the message earlier.

"ang sabi ko ang kailangan mo ng
1.connection sa land line+ monthly fee
2.printer unit
3. connection sa Broadband+monthly fee.

pag nabigayan mo ako ng stimated cost ng 1,2and 3, mag aayos na tayong plano.malapit na b-day mo next mo. na

bigyan mo ako ASAP ng detalye ok.

we love u all"

so, will someone tell me what are the costs of those things mentioned above?

I love the look in your eyes;I always see my name.

My thoughts are all about him and him and him and him.

I want to call him mine though his not officially my boyfriend.

He calls me his princess and often regarded himself as my slave.

While lying at my lap, he once told me, "Oo baga..aso mo lang ako, alipin mo...ano pa nga ba?" Then I gave him a torturing look and said, "Bakit? Nagrereklamo ka?" With his loving smile he took my hand and apologized sweetly, "Hindi naman po, gusto ko naman talaga 'tong ginagawa ko. Prinsesa baga kita."

He means everything to me.
He gives me more kisses than heartaches.
He chooses to be drown from my breath than to be drown from liquors.
He stays beside me and at the same time takes me to a place of colorful butterflies, fluttering birds and enchanted trees.
He loves it when I'm jealous of someone.
He bites my ears when he wants to hug me.
He respects all the things about me.
He keeps on telling me he loves me.
He makes my blockmates think that he's madly in love with me. And yes he is.
He likes it when I'm eating more than what he eats.
He stammers everytime I make him feel I'm staring at him.
He says "thank you" whenever I look into his eyes and say "I love you"
He means I love you when he's telling me he's gonna leave me.
He tells me he will look for someone better than but can't find one.
He smiles at me when we accidentally and intentionally taking a glance at each other.
He makes me feel LOVE.

parang ayaw nya aqng katabi..hehe.

Weeh. Head over heels pa rin ako. Wag ng kumontra. Hehe. Wala lang, kung bakit ba naman kasi masyadong masaya sa tuwing ang isang tao'y umiibig. Haha. Makulay ang buhay.

Sya nga pala,bakit kaya hanggang ngayon hindi pa rin ako nagpapass ng reaction paper sa NSTP?haha..ang tagal na nun..

Tuesday na naman bukas may pasok na naman. Hay naku. Ayos lang.haha..

Darn.

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Boy, don't you know you can't escape me.
Ooh darling 'coz you'll always be my baby.

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Sunday morning rain is falling

Steal some covers share some skin
Clouds are shrouding us in moments unforgettable
You twist to fit the mold that I am in
But things just get so crazy living life gets hard to do
And I would gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you
That someday it would lead me back to you

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at bakit ang tagal ng byahe from Daet to Naga..ang tagal dumating ni Beloved ko..

Are you?

I conquered hell and even met Satan himself. Yet I'm still alive and celebrating life. Don't bother ask why I am in such high spirits. I'm not pretty sure if everything about my life is fine but I'm enjoying everything I have right now.

Enough of englishes..haha

Siguro nga and rami ko pang gustong makuha. Isa na dun yung maging DL..whoa. Ang totoo medyo malabo na rin naman yun kasi hindi naman mataas yung isang subject ko. Hindi lang pala isa, marami pa. Parang ironic kasi galing ako sa isang "science high school" tapos ganu, sa Physical Sciences pa ako medjo tagilid. Azaar.

Haha..naalala ko nga pala,hindi pa ako nagssubmit ng reaction paper sa NSTP at hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano nag dapat isagot sa mga tanong dun.

harhar,eniweiz..

I'm just soo happy kasi I'm with my friend, Naxcz. Hehe..matagal-tagal na rin kaming hindi nakakapag bonding together kahit super sa uber ang lapit namin sa isa't isa sa room. Pareho kasi kaming artitahin and all kaya busy kami. Ako sa table tennis and some other (not yet be mentioned) stuffs. Sya naman, sa the Pillars and other stuffs na rin, o diba mas makabuluhan ng ilang patak yung sa kanya.hehe. And because she decided to go with me at hindi pumunta sa dakila nilang opish at habang ako naman ay walang training today,nandito kami sa Kumpyuteran at obcurs naman nagcococmputer..haha.

Parang nakakaramdam na ako ng gutom,si Kuya Seki kasi kumagat sa burger ko.hehe..well, speaking of Kuya Seki na masyadong related sa pagttable tennis ko, yan. improving na ang laro ko. Weeh, and I meant it. Medyo konti ayos na lang sa paa ko pwede ng laro papuntang Manila.Wahaha.


By the way,ehem..medyo love ko na si "blockmate". Haha. Obvious ba? Ai naku, masyado naman talaga akong swerte sa kanya hindi ko lang matanggap.Hehe. Nung Tuesday e medjo na parang nagdate effect kami. Hindi sana ganun yung mangyayari dahl hahanap lang naman dapat kami ng shirt at uuwi na. Pero since, nagugutom na ako (na kadalasn namang nangyayari) at makapal na talaga nag pagmumukha ko eh..ganito na yun..

Malean: Gutom na ako... (kunwaring tulala para may effect)
Mikel:(naniwala naman) Ako rin eh, san mo gusto kumain?
Malean: Uhm, Mcdo tayo..kanya-kanya na lang kasi medjo nagtaas na sila eh..(sabay ngiti sa kanya)
Mikel: O cge, pero libre ko na..minsan lang 'to..
(ilang minutes pagtapos namin pumasok sa Mcdo
Malean: Nu kakainin mo?
Mikel: kung anu ang kakainin mo..(painosenteng tumingin sa walls ng Mcdo)
Malean: Sigurado ka?Bahala ka..
Mikel: Oo, basta ako magbabayad..
Malean: Duh..kakain ako ng cheese burger tapos ikaw magbabayad?anu ka ba?
Mikel: Basta, O order na tayo..
Malean: (ilinabas ko na yung aking pera linabas nya rin yung sa kanya) Uhm, cheese burger ka rin? 68 pesos..
Mikel:(kinuha ang perang hawak ko at pinalitan ng 200) Kulang pa ba yan? sabay kuha ulit sa kamay ko at ibinalik ang pera ko..
Malean: Bahala ka..sige, kaw na nga magbayad..(yahoo..hehe)
Mikel: Yan lang kakainin mo? Ayaw mo ng ice cream? Rice? Chicken?
Malean: Hoy, Mikel tingin mo sakin matakaw? Hindi ako pwedeng mag-ice cream ngayon may sipon pa ako. Sa bahay na lang ako kakain ng rice..(sabay tawa,,hehe..aning)
Mikel: Ay, oo nga pala..

habang kumakain...

Mikel: Ang saya-saya ko ngayon..
Malean: Halata nga, tingnan mo yang ngiti mo..
Mikel: Gusto mo pang umorder?
Malean: Ang sama mo, tingin mo talaga sakin matakaw ako..(totoo naman)
Mikel: Baka kasi kulang pa sayo..hehe..
Malean: Ewan ko sayo. (kakagat ng burger)
Mikel: i love you
Malean: (At dahil may laman ang bibig ko ngumiti na lang ako)
Mikel: i love you..mahal kita..hindi kita iiwan..maghihintay lang ako..
Malean: (Halos ubusin na ang Coke sa pag-inom)
Mikel: Ang ganda talaga ng mahal ko.. (titingin sakin habang kumakain ako..)
Malean: (ehem..sabay lunok ng burger) pinagbobobola mo talaga ako..
Mikel: Hindi,basta akin ka na lang hah?
Malean: Ayoko
Mikel: Cge na?
Malean:Hirap magdecide eh..
Mikel: BAsta, maghihintay ako
Malean: (ubos na ang Coke,kagat-kagat ang straw) I love you.
Mikel: (nakatingin sakin)
Malean: (kagat pa rin ang straw) I love you.
Mikel: (sa wakas nacomprehend nya na..)paki ulit?
Malean: sabi ko i love you pero kelangan ko muna mag-isip..hindi ko poa rin sya makalimutan..
Mikel: Anung sabi mo?
Malean: wala.may sinabi ba ako?
Mikel:ee..ulitin mo..sige na please..
Malean: I love you(korni ai..)
Mikel:(nagbblush na sya) kinakabahan ako..(sabay pikit)ang sarap pakinggan..maghihintay po ako..
Malean: (ngingiti-ngiti na lang)
Mikel: Ayaw mo na talagng kumain?
Malean: Heh!ewan ko sayo.

"45 things a girl wants, but wont ask for it"

1. Hug her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.
Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends
together.
KEEP READING
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,
deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her
more than you, deny it. Fight back
and hug her tight so she can't
get to her friends, it makes her
feel loved.
Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say I love you
whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the
waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about
her.
One last thing you need to do to show
her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her
car- it makes her feel protected,
plus it never hurts to act like a
gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything -
only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something
wrong, ask her- if she denies
something being wrong, it means
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT-
so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls
you know !!
WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US
26. Don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the
morning and tell her have a good
day at work {or school}, and how
much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she
needs you, & even when she doesn't
need you, just be there so she'll
know that she can ALWAYS count on
you.
ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER
BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT !!
31. Hold her close when she's cold so
she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE, hold her close
and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEKS (it will
give her the hint that you want to
kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm
around her and then she will
automatically put her head on
your shoulder, then lean in and
tilt her chin up and kiss her
LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even
jokingly or act like you're mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.
REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT
36. When people DISS her, stand up for
her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell
her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put
her head on your chest so she can
listen to the steady beat of your
heart. Link your fingers together
while you whisper to her as she
rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other
grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her, HOLD her in your
arms as long as possible.
MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED
41. Call or text her at night to wish
her SWEET DREAMS.
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe
away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love
her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how
much you love her and then bend
down to her face and kiss her
while sitting on her.
You'll never know when she needs
just a little bit more love

Malean aning

aug 3
kanina eh gumising ako ng 5:45 at nakiramdam kung umuulan ba o hindi. Nung ma feel kong hindi, bumagaon na ako,,naligo at nagbihis ng pang jogging. By 6 am nasa Basilica na ang beauty ko. Witing for my team mates. At matapos dumating ang tatlo kong boylets este ka-team nag simula na kaming mag-jog..umambon,umulan ng malakas,huminto ang ulan;nagjogging,tumigil at nagjogging ulit..at pag tapos ng ilang rounds napagod na kami at nagdecide na umupo na..naalala kong sa shoes ko linagay ang pera ko na 120 pesos..nawindang na lamang ako ng makitang wala na yung money..stupisd gurl. yan tuloy lumibot ako ng lumibot, tinulungan na ako ni Kuya Bert, at Kuya Tom, pero wala pa rin. No sigh of 120 pesos. Idiota naman kasi ako..aning.tsk. Yan..sumakay na lang kami ng Fx ni Kuay Tom at kumain sa Kinalas Twin. Buti at lab talaga ako ni Kuya Bert, yun libre yung kinain ko..wawa daw kasi ako.hehe..
Umuwi ng bahay at muling natulog..hehe..
aug 2
Pag gising ko ng nga bandang 4 pm dahil di nga ako makatulog ng maayos dahil kay "blockmate" eh natadtad ako ng mga messages nya saying:
"Mhl n mhl po kt, alm mo yn, nnd2 lng aq pr syo, pro ayusin n muna ntn mga problema ntn,bgo tyo bmlik s dti, gs2 q bumlik k skn n wl ng prob., hi2ntyn po kt, ayusin mo n yn, ayos lng qng sya pi2liin mo, wg mo aqng piliin dhl naaawa k skn, qng pi2liin mo mn aq gus2 q ung mhal mo n aq." Sent:2-Aug-2008 04:03:39

di ko alam dapat isagot kaya nag-isp na lang ako ng kung anu-ano kahit di na ako dinalaw ng antok. Hay, unang-una wala akong prob na dapat ayusin..di ba Ease? ikalawa, anu nga ba yung dating tayo? ikatlo, bakit kasi ako pa?hay.hay.hay.

aug 1
Tumawag sa akin si Ease dahil napilitan na rin naman sya,,hehe.. Matagal ang pag-uusap namin at parang nakahalata na rin ang iba kong block mates dahil inoorasan na rin nila yung tawag nya. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero masaya ako nang makausap ko sya. uuwi yata sya ngayong August, I hope to see him. Hehe,.

Ay naku, at parang nagtampo naman yata si "blockmate" nang sinabi kong tumawag si Ease sakin at sabi ko uuwi sya..hehe..parang abot tenga siguro ang ngiti ko habang nagkwekwento kaya yun ang ending medyo pinahabol nya lang naman ako. Iniwan nya rin ako na hindi pa nag-eexplain at parang na balewala yung beauty ko nung oras na yun. Sakit din pala.

Ibinuhos ko na lang lahat ng emotions ko sa paglalaro ng table tennis..hanggang sa alas-otcho na pala ng gabi. Ayoko pang umuwi, kahit gutom na gutom na ako. Buti na lang at mahal ako ni Kuya Bert, napilitan syang sabayan ako sa pagkain ng pizza sa Greenwich, naalala ko tuloy yung mahilig sa pizza..hay.




july 31
I'm supposed to donate a bag of blood that day but because of some annoying circumstances and the fact that I'm not in the age to donate I was forbidden to do so.
What I did is watch my team mates' blood sucked from their veins. Bongang-bongang laki ng needle. Coach Bert was also deferred from donating his blood because of his ear piercing done only that week also he consumed some liquor before that day. The excited I, ended up wandering around the Xavier Hall with Kuya Bert. Bringing some misfortunes for that morning I saw my stalker last summer stepping at the said hall. I cautiously eyed him and whisphered at Kuya's ear, "Kuya, haloy pa sindang kukuanan blood? yaon kaya digdi si sinabi kong nagsunod sako." He wasn't surprised by what I said. He even smiled and pointed the 'monstrous' man, "Iyan? Nakakatakot man talaga." I did not bother ask him, he might saw my expression when that man appeared before me.
At sa wakas matapos ang limang oras nang paghihintay eh sumakay na kami ng Tamarraw Fx ni Kuya Tom. Umuwi na kasi sina Ate Denz and Kuya Oyi kaya kaming tatlo na lang ang magkakasama. The plan was to eat lunch at E-mall pero since pagkatapos i-park ni Kuya Tom ang Fx nya sa tapat ng Marantz(nagkataong sila pala ang may ari nun)eh na-sight ko ang beauty ni Ma'am Arlene. Hayun at todo sa kwentuhan silang dalawa ni Kuya Bert. Mga bandang alas-dos napagod na rin sila kaya dertso na kaming E-mall. At ang dapat na lunch na linu-look forward ko eh naging ice cream(pabor pa rin,libre ni Kuya Bert) nagpalipas kami dun ng oras..tapos biglang dumating sina Kuya Oyi and Lei. Umakyat na kami ng World of Fun dahil medyo matagal pa naman mag 3pm..
Nung 3:15 na, nagdecide na si Coach-Kuya Bert na pumunta na kami sa Jollibee where a Kiddie Party is waiting for us.(Kunwari di nyo 'to nabasa...nakita ko dun si Mr. Greg Iles..weee..aattend rin sya ng Kiddie party at hinihintay nya rin ang mga ka-team nya..)
Nung nasa loob na kami ng Jollibee ay nagsimula na ang walang katapusang say. Parang di mga college students ang nandun,,hehe..Napasama pa ako sa games,enjoy talaga.
Well, dahil natapos ng 5pm ang party at sadyang mga MABABAIT kaming bata eh hindi pa umuwi ang team. Punta ulit E Mall, syempre naglaro ulit kami sa WOF. Ang dami kong nakuhang tickets ang dami ko ring nagastos na pera,solb naman.haha. Nakakuha pa ako ng Nemo na stuffed toy dun sa parang Dream Catcher..haha..O diba?

july30
nabasa nya na ang blog ko..speechless ang beauty ko..weeeeee

Will you ease the pain I feel?

At maraming babae kanina ang umiiyak ng ako'y dumating. Hindi ko alam kung pasan ba nila nag problema ng daigdig? Kung sbi nga ni Ron "panu ko mapapababa pa ang NFA rice?"
Kung feeling ba nila m=nakakaiyak ang mga gagawing pangako ni GMA sa kanyang ibinigay na SONA kanina lang? O dahil sa broken ang kanilang faith sa pag-ibig?

Hay naku naman girls, kung alam nyo lang I have a problem of my own din. Matapos ba naman kasi ng mga unbelievable at unconceivable na ginawa ko nung Sunday na madaling araw eh parang walang impact pa rin sakin si "blockmate"..sa lagay na yun..

Ay sus,at sa mga sandaling ito ay ka-text ko si Ease. At kinukumbinsi nya akong maging happy dahil sa present lovelife ko. Sinabi ko na rin sa kanya na hindi ko na natupad yung promise ko. Sa dalawang rason, napagod na ako at may biglang dumating sa buhay ko.
He said he's happy for me. Am I, for myself?

Hay, at dahil nga ayokong masaktan si "blockmate" eh hindi ko na masyadong ipinararamdam kay Ease na I'm still into him. Nep yan,mapaglarong tadhana.

Dati kasi, kulit ako ng kulit para magtext sya. Para kahit one day hindi maputol yung communication namin. Tapos ngayon, nagtetext na sya kung kelan may willing ng mag-alaga sakin ng bongang-bonga. Tapos sasabihin nya sakin na gusto nya akong makatext, hindi naman kaya nung mga nakaraang buwan eh todo text ko sa kanya. Todo load araw-araw kasi baka makaisip syang magtextkaya dapat prepared tapos ganun, hindi sya nagrerespond sa lahat ng un. Hirap kaya,nakakapagod.

Hindi ko na masabi sa kanya na mahal ko sya kahit yun yung nafefeel ko.

Pwede naman kasing mtagal nya ng pinaramdam nya sakin na ayaw nya kong mawala at gusto nyang maghintay talaga ako. At sana hindi nya trinay na maputol yung communication namin at sana araw-araw nyang sinabing mahal nya din ako, konti tiis lang..mabubuhay naman ako kahit ganun lang eh.

But now, thre's no turning back, dapat panindigan ko na yung kay "blockmate" kahit sobrang hirap. Naffall na rin naman ako sa kanya. Pagpapatuloy ko na.

Last Song Syndrome attacks my solitary bird brain mind

Paramore Lyrics
Thats What You Get Lyrics

na-ee LSS lng talaga ako sa kantang 'to..haha..amp..

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badtrp where will I get illustrations of gymnastics apparatus? hassle naman..timber trees pa pala..may refelction paper pa sa nstp..hayy..pressure mode,love it.

hay,I do not enjoy our Eng001 class anymore, things are not exciting. We all do the writing stuffs and it's the literal writing! "Do some outline about this, summarize this article, paraphrase this one. Make your own topic sentence for these supporting sentences." Whoa, I can't stand all these thimgs not even Naxcz can. Buti na lang may cute pang guy sa likod. Haha. Namiss ko tuloy sina Ma'am Babes, Sir Maskom and of course Ma'am Teran. Reminiscing my high school English days with these known-to-be-torturing teachers. Technical writing with Ms. Teran, English language and speec class with Sir Maskom, and the RND stuff(I want to be a DJ again.) And Ma'am Babes' discussion,when we were in first year and fourth year, about grammars,English literature and some cool movie viewings.

Bigla ko tuloy naisip na sana high school na lang ako. Nakakamiss, kanina nga habang pinapanood ko sa Youtube yung NCSHS_OSIRIS thing tapos yung High na yung nagpplay na song parang naiiyak ako. drama!haha.

Wla lang, kakamiss ang batch namin na kahit puros pangchichismis, panglalait, kalokohan, pangbabackfight, pag-aaral, pag-attend ng Rakrakan, pagmamarcha,pagbabanda, pagpapaalis ng teachers, pang- aaway ng ibang batch na kumakalaban samin, at pagsigaw ng legendary "GO!OSIRIS!GO!GO!OSIRIS!" simula freshmen hanggang pagiging seniors eh mahal na mahal namin ang isa'isa..dba?haha..


to all Osiris' followers:

Guys,I'm missing you badly. I'm hoping to bump into anyone of you just to say I'm missing you. What the heck am I saying? OA,,haha..basta..
After ilang years when all of us are successful in our own endeavors don't forget that once in your life you carry that great name. I know we're all still carrying that name in our hearts. Pusang gala,parang nagsspeech ako..weee..haha..

_sorry sa wromg gramming..nu man?!haha_


fiesta kina koren..wahaha..

Life can be as cruel as hail storms and tame as a touch-me-not leaf

I never said that "I love you"! What a stupid start. That line keeps on nagging inside my head. I'm not a fan of Sam Milby but I used to watch the telenovela thing of them. Enough of that.


Whew,hayy..at ano nga ba ang gusto kong sabihin sayo na hndi ko magawang saihin pagka text dahil 1. I prohibitted myself in doing so. 2. I know that it's an awkward thing for you. 3. I'm ashamed of how I act. At gusto ko lang naman kasing iparating sayo e yung linawin mo kung ano na ba o PA ba ako sayo. Nahihiya na ako sa mga pinagsasasabi ko sayo pero sadyang yun talaga ang laman ng bawat cell ko sa katawan. I don't give a damn kahit marami na rin ang nakapagsabing walang kasiguruhan ang inaasahan ko. Nagrereklamo ako, hindi dahil napapagod na ako kundi dahil gusto kong malaman kung may pinupuntahan pa ba ang pagod ko. Hindi ako naniningil ng kung ano pa man galing sayo. Hindi ko rin intensyon na maging stalker mo sa text sa halos minu-minuto kong pagsend sayo ng message. Hindi ako obsses sayo ng ganun kasama. Hindi ko rin ngayon mawari kung bakit minahal kita, pero hindi ako nagsisisi sa naging desisyon ko.Tinanong kita kung gusto mo pa ba akong maghintay. Sabi kasi ni Sand' "matuto kang magtanong, oo o hindi lang naman ang sagot a tanong mo..." At sa kasamaang palad wala sa dalawang salitang OO at HINDI ang isinagot mo sakin, "Bahala ka.." Hindi ko alam kung negative o positive yun pero sige..bahala na nga siguro ako. Bahala na nga lang talaga yung sagot sa tanong na yun. Haha. Masyado na nga sigurong naprepessure ka sa presene ko, so I decided na mawala na yung presence na yun. Enough of those impossible wishes. I'll still be waiting pero bahala na nga pala...At ayoko mang bawiin, binabawi ko na lahat ng sinabi ko sayo. Don't worry I'll be fine. Ako pa..tsk tsk..

My pasok pala ako ng alas dose! Leche. Kelangan na palang umalis dito. Ai sus naman Eleanor.


At sabi nga ni Coach Noli nung SAGA "Apathy kills this University!" No connection at all..haha..

A little crazy drama about friendship

It all started when I and Naxcz constantly busied ourselves with our own oragnization/s joined. I never got the courage to spill this out because I'm afraid of the reaction I'll get but then Nikko rushes to my aid (not directly, though) through his post I just finished reading.

>Well,I found myself a bit jealous about Kate, Jen, and Nagj at sa di ko na naman malaman na dahilan hindi umiral yung pag ka understanding ko na alam ng lahat na ganun akong klaseng tao. It's just that mas updated na sila sa happenings kay Naxcz, at kahit na sinasabi ng logic ko na natural dahil lagi silang magkakasama, hindi ko pa rin maalis ang mag-jelly jelly. Haha. Nakakatuwa kasi I'm not really like this. At sabi rin ng logic ko may nameet na rin naman akong new friends kaya dapat I should not be jelly-ace. Pero wala lang, namiss ko lang bigla si Naxcz kahit araw-araw naman kaming magkasama. Hayyz.Nikko, hinawaan mo ko..loko lang.

>Tapos 'yung iba dyan hindi na nagttext..pagmagrereply ako kung kamusta na kayo,,hindi na nagrereply.huhu. Magttext pag la na me load.hmp. Pero sabi ng logic ko, baka busy lang sila at sadyang nahihirapan ng humanap ng time para sa pag-text.

>Tapos, may mga tinatawag akong tao pagnakikita ko sila hindi naman lumilingon.hmp.

>Tsaka,hoy Anna! Kung nasang lumpalop ka man..mis na kita!! Magparamdam ka!!!

Ahm,yan lang naman. I just love them this much para maging selosa ako at aning sa mga bagay na hindi dapat ka-aningan. I just miss the old days where aall of us are on the same side chatting, doing crazy and funny stuffs, watching movies together, waiting for each other every after class, practice,meeting,seminar,group works at kung ano pa mang dahilan kung bakit wala ang isa sa amin.


I just love you this much.

If you'll be stealing my heart from him make it more dramatic and realistic

Today was our Recollection and it feels good to experienced that kind of event. We had some spiritual exercises before we confessed our sins. I'm not telling you what my sins are,you know it's something confidential according to the Catholic Church. There's nothing too striking with the Recollection but someone stood out before my eyes. He's my blockmate, the guy who promised me all his faithful, undying and unconditional love.
Unaware of what I'm doing, I stared at him for minutes when it was lunch break and I just found him sitting next to me. Maybe the "staring" thing is because I still wonder why in the world he decided to offer me his faithful, undying, and unconditional love. He never told me why, though he always assures me that this feeling of him will never change, (we'll see).

Then, I ask now myself why I can't respond to all his endearments and sweet talk. I'm aware that he cares, thinks, and loves me (pwera kapal kang kamuks) but there is something that pulls me back from responding; I'm very passive every time we talk. You read it right, we are now in speaking terms.

At bigla akong naubusan ng English pagkatapos mabasa ang blog ni (sister, loko lang) Nica. I'm missing this gal sooo much, can't wait to see her again.


Hayyy..I'm tired of telling stories about this blockmate of mine but I can't help it. Uhm, to those who don't have any single hint what he looks and acts like here's some of my "assessment" about him:

>just about my height
>his white..whiter than me!
>loves wearing Bench clothes, as observed
>not the smart and studious kind of guy
>I find him cute..haha
>wears cap
>clean looking, he has removed his earrings
>has a henna tattoo on his lower arm, well it's already fading
>he doesn't want to confess
>got that cute smile whenever his looking at my direction
>he smokes (turn-off!!!) but according to him not that much. "..lokohin mo sarili mo!"
>a native of Cam. Norte
>finished his high school education in some private (Chinese?!) school



Bottom line, I'm very passive about him though there were times of "kilig" moments. I'm like a burden for him, I think. There was this point of time when he was about to sleep and I texted him "Ok. Gud nyt din. pray before sleeing." he responded oddly "Wala man lamang luv u?joke lng po. ang pray ko lang naman maging tayo..cge,padangat taka po." I blankly stared at his message at sa ka-aningan ko pinalitan ko yung pangalan nya ng pangalan ni Ease at nag-imagine ana kunwari sa kanya galing yun. Pinalitan ko naman ulit bago ako matulog nung pangalan ng tunay na nagsend nun. Hayy, wishing pa rin ang lola mo na si Ease ang magttext nun. Natulog ako ng basa ang unan hindi dahil sa laway, syempre dahil sa luha.Anep, habang nag-a iloveu ka sa mahal mo my nag-a iloveyou rin sayo..bwisit.nakokonsensya tuloy ako kay blockmate dahil gusto naya talagang mapalapit sa ugliness ko.

Well, that ends my story for this post.

How am I going to face a life lived without you?

Tama ba ung grammar?
Masyado na akong concious about it because of the fuck este fact that I'm a AB Broadcasting major.
Anyways..ang rami kong ikwewento kaya hindi na muna ko mageenglish.haha


Simulan ko na...


TABLE TENNIS

At sa buong buhay ko eto lang yata 'yung constant. I still love this game and is continuously inclined with this sports. Eto ang well, to exaggerate things, buhay ko.
Every after classes, may kasama man o wala, may date man (na palaging wala) tatakbo ako ng pagkabilis-bilis papuntang gym ng ADNU. Hehe. Ang dami kasing cute doon. Just kidding.
Tapos magbibihis,magsstretching,magshshodwing, at poooh..maglalaro na. Sa sobrang pagka addict ko sa table tennis eh mga 8pm na ko kadalasang umuuwi dahil na rin sa nagpapaturo ako ng bagong styles kay Kuya Bert. Tapos nagpapractice akong gamitin yung bagong rubber na idinikit nya sa racket ko. Naka-pimps na ko!!Wahaha, sabi ni Kuya Seki mga one year yan pag-aralan pero so far parang mas madali naman daw akong matututo nun.
At pagkatapos ko namang maglaro, dahil sinusundo na ni Ate Angie si Kuya Bert eh kelangan ko ng magvanish into thin air. Syempre,lovers. Kadalasan naman nandun yung buong team kaya pagtapos ng play dertso kaagad kami sa malapit na kainan.

Eto nga pala yung bumubuo ng team..kasali na ung iba kong kilalang trainees tulad ko:

Kuya Bert
Siya si Coach, student-coach. Hindi na kasi sya maglalaro,magcocoach na lang daw. But he's still enrolled in Adnu BS IT from Nursing..haha.. Siya yung pinakamagaling sa team. Tapos super kalog and kind. Kaming dalawa yung laging nagpapakasawa sa table pag-umaayaw na yung lahat. Sya rin yung nagpalit ng rubber ko.
Una ko nga pala syang nakilala sa Bicol Meet '08.

Kuya Seki
Eto yung lalaking pagka hyper, as in..sagad! Pero hindi ka maiinis sa kanya dahil masyado syang mabait at gwapo para kainisan. Single pa pala sya, as far as I know. DIA student simula nang tumuntong syang Adnu. Pag-aari nya yung pinakamagandang racket sa team,BRYCE!!! Magaling magloop at gumawa ng nakakatuwang stunts at curses pagnaglalaro sya.Hehe. Uhm,sa tingin ko my crush sya sa kin..joke lang po..haha..hindi, super sweet kasi nya sa lahat as in hindi mo maffifeel na ang layo ng play mo sa play nya. Humble ba. Kiniss nya nga si Ate Pixxie sa cheeks nainggit tuloy ako.loko lang. Nakilala ko rin sya sa Bicol Meet '08.

Ate Pixxie
Cute and cuddly, yan si Ate Pixx. Kiliwete sya kaya medyo mahirap kalaro, sya yung pinakamagaling sa babae, pero parang hindi na yata sya maglalaro. NAkatira sya dun sa may Ba'k Mie something na kainan,boarding house. Dun yung tambayan ng team pag gusto nila mag-inuman para raw safe. Oo nga naman, nasa tapat kaya yun ng Barangay HAll.hehe.


Ate Tin
Siya 'yung laging present sa kainan.Hehe. Akala ko nung una mataray si Ate Tin,pero oo talaga.joke. MAtaray sya sa dapat tarayan. Sya yung nagkwento sakin kung saan-saan nakarating ang buong team last year,UP, ADMU..at kung saan-saan pa. Super bait din ni Ate Tin, laging parang required ang lahat sumama sa jam ng tem sabi nya. Hehe.


Kuya Julius
Nung first day nagpaglaro ko sa gym si Kuya Julius yung isa pa sa nakajam ko maliban kay Kuya Bert. Another DIA student. Akala ko nga nerd sya kasi parang ganun sya kung kumilos tska magsalita. Hindi naman pala,masyado.hehe. On the go rin sya sa lakad ng team. Ka-text ko sya minsan. Tahimik lang kasi sya. Sa tingin ko idol nya si Kuya Bert.Wala lang. GAling pala yata syang USSANT.


Kuya Tom
HAikk. YAn yung laging batian namin pagnagkikita kami. Siya yung na assisgned na team CApt ng boys. GAling syang HOPe Christian tapos isan engineering student sya. Whoa, math. MAhilig rin syang makipaglaro kay Kuya Bert. Idol nya rin siguro. PArang di nya feel makipaglaro sa baguhan PAgmati ko lang. Tapos masyadong perfectionist sya pagmagshshadowing kami.

Ate Dancyl
DL to pare DEAN'S LISTER. haha..yan si ate..Sya ang team captain ng gurls. wala akong masyadong alam sa kanya. Well.masyado kasi syang busy sa studies nya kay yun bihira kaming magkatagpo sa gym.


Kuya Oyi
BF ni Kim..hehe..nakakatakot pag nagside spin na sya dahil masyadong fast ball ang pagbigay nya. Hindi ko sya masyadong nakakausap di tulad ni Kuya Seki. Offensive player na sya nagayon at malaki na ang inimprove sabi ni Kuya Bert at gf Kim..heehe.


Lei
Of course kateam ko na sya sa Bicol Meet palang. Super astig magspimn. Lgi nya akong tinuturuan nung spin nya sa PALARO kaso hindi ko makuha. To be continue na lang sa Adnu.haha. Nursing student pala to si Lei, at feeling ko lang sya yung pinakamagaling sa boys. NAghahanap pala to ng chick sinong gustong ireto ko sa kanya?


LABU LYP SA COLLEGE

"Pakarhay sa pagpili,Malean. Kadakul na macourt saimo nguniang college."
"Nagpaparagayon ka na lang pati, dalaga ka na."
"Dapat duman sa may futuro ka, responsable..."
-Nikko Barde

Friendship wala pa naman po akong balak maghanap ng asawa.


What the heck naman kasi,kelanagn ko bang pumili? Pwedeng si ano na lang? Bakit ba naman kasi sa 24 oras sa isang araw sa tuwing mag-aalas dose ka pa ng gabi magpaparamdam. Nagpapahinga na ko sa mga oras na yan.
Halos maiyak ako dahil halos magmakaawa na kong magreply ka at lahat-lahat wala pa rin akong natatanggap. Matutulog na sugatan ang pag-asa sayo.xudee.
Tulad kagabi, halos mabiyak nag puso ko este ulo dahil sa sakit nito,pero di parin ako tumitigil sa pagtext sayo. Hindi ko naman masabi na masakit nga yun gdahil baka isipin mong nagpapaawa ako. No. Bakit ba naman kasi..bakit?


May isa pang taong nagiging dahilan why I'm in a great dilemma today. My another blockmate who seems to be more than willing to take care of me. We are not in speaking terms because as what he reasoned out,na shashy daw sya sakin. Paulit-ulit ko namang sinasabi sa kanya na iba na nga lang kasi nga I'm waiting for the person who will EASE the yearning I feel. At paulit-ulit nya rin sinasabi na hindi daw sya aatras at mag gigve up sakin. Anep naman, ayokong makasakit ng tao. At napakabait nya naman para saktan. Tulad ng ibang male species he promised me na hindi nya daw ako sasaktan,gagawin nya raw lahat para sakin,maghihintay daw sya. And lagi nya kong tinatanong kung pwedeng sya na lang mag take care sakin,kung pwedeng "..akin ka na lang?" Eh hindi nga pwede eh. Pare naman pinahihirapan mo ko. Masyadong malaikas ang hila ng konsensya ko!


Buti pa tong isang taong 'to hindi pinahihirapan ang kalooban ko.HAha. Nung sinabi kong "Unli na sa Sat,kadkul akong iistorya.." Napaka simple lang ng sagotn nya "ok, maunli ako..isturya ka ha.." Siya lang naman yung karamay ko kagabi nung halos hndi na ako maklahinga ng maayos sa hindi malamang dahilan.Wag nyong bigyan ng malisya,tinaggap ko na nung summer na ayaw nya talaga sakin. He's a shoulder to cry on kaya ai. Always present pag mayong nagkakaulay sako, Actually, last choice ko nasya ngunian ta todo iwas na akong magka feelings ulit saiya. Pero sya talaga si biglang present eh. Tapos nung ipinamigay nya yung high-tech nyang cp sa holdaper eh nabigla ako ng may contact number nya pa akong nakatago at sya na mismo ang nagbigay ng bago nyang numbah. Anong tuwa ko nun. Tapos,sa wakas mahihiram ko nayung precious book nya.woohoo.


May cute pala akong classmate sa Eng001,haha tapos nakausap ko sya last meeting..hehe..dating Isabelino na Food Service student na nagshift sa BS IT pagdating nya ng ADNU. Tapos naghighschool sya sa UNC..ang bait nya tapos ang sarap kausap tapos(tingin sya ng tingin sakin)loko lang..haha..