You bumped into each other and made a polite smile. Then, there was nothing. There was nothing behind that smile. It was just a polite smile. It was a smile you wish to be more friendly and warm. It was a smile you wish should be followed by a tight hug. There was nothing in that smile except the fact that you wish you were able to talk to him, ask him how was his day, tell him that you miss him and hug him like nobody's around. And all the wishful thoughts you could ever think would remain figments of your imagination. It would all soon fade and gone with the wind.
Arg. Yes, you wish to tell him that you never hated him. You were only trying to make an imaginary gap and loath just to vanquish your affection for him. You are getting tired of fooling yourself that you don't really love him after all. But things go wild and slap you so hard that even hearing his name, melts your heart both because of love and yearning. You don't know how to act every time his around because you get this urge of facing him and telling him that you're STILL crazy about him. And then you count the months of your insanity and is surprised by how far you went just for the name of love.
You wish.
You think.
You dream.
But nothing's really in store for you. Nobody's coming back to hug you. You are left with no choice. You still try and still hope but you couldn't do anything about it. You never regret being insanely in love with him. You've learned a lot.
You will always cherish him.
But, time will come that you MUST and you WILL forget him.
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*magpapasalamat na naman sana ulit ako sa'yo dahil sa pagreply mo kanina at sa marami pang bagay, kaso NEVER ENDING na naman 'tong post na 'to kung sakali.hahaha.ewan.
just take care of yourself for me. ^_____^
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